And It's the Christmas Season again. (:

It's going to be Christmas soon, again! I can still remember what I did for Christmas last year, me and my babies went to Singapore and the Christmas decos there are gorgeous! So sad that i'll missed it this year :( money is really running tight for me. I remembered that we went to baby tian's house for Christmas eve celebration where we exchange gifts and had drinking session too. The Christmas gift I received is still well kept on my bed. It's a cute white doll dressed with a santa hat and a scarf!

Well, this year round...we didn't have the chance to go anywhere out of KL, but I guess it's not a bad thing. There are sales everywhere, and ofcourse every shopping mall has its own unique Christmas decos. I'm not very satisfied with this year's decos though, I felt that it's not very special (or is it because I getting more "cerewet"?) Nontheless, I can't deny that the Christmas atmosphere is definitely on the air!

Here are some snapshots of different malls' Christmas decos.

Baby Tian and myself in 1U.

With my college mates - Seet Long, Sarah Kate, Jilly, SueAnn and Tony in Pavilion.

Myself at Pavilion's main entrance.

My beloved babies - Li, Chyn,Tian,Nie -- at Pavilion's main entrance.

Since everyone is in a Christmas mood (well, perhaps the 4 of us - Rowena, Jilly, Zizi and me) we even had a pre-Christmas dinner at The Curve. Theme colour - Red, Dress Code - Santa Hat. The four of us look like SantaRinas! (:

We had dinner at Paddington House of Pancakes and we were sooo noisy, I bet everyone inside there can hear us! We took lots of pictures too, and thank God the staff there are willing to help us! (:

Zizi,me,Rowena, Jilly.

Christmas deco in The Curve.

I can't wait for Christmas! I'm blessed to have my lovely babies to celebrate this day with me.

I also thank God for giving us the greatest gift on earth on this blessed day.

"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life" (John 3:16)

I would like to share with u guys my favourite Christmas carol :

Christmas Isn't Christmas, Till It Happens In Your Heart.

Christmas isn't Christmas
Till it happens, in your heart,

Somewhere deep inside you,

Is where Christmas really starts.

So give your heart to Jesus,

You'll discover when you do,

That it's Christmas,

Really Christmas, for you.

Jesus brings warmth like a winter fire,

A light like a candle's glow,

He's waiting now to come inside,

As He did so long ago.

Jesus brings gifts of truth and life,

And makes them bloom and grow

So welcome Him with a song of joy

And when He come you will know...that...

Christmas isn't Christmas,

Till it happens in your heart,

Somewhere deep inside you

Is where Christmas really starts.

So give your heart to Jesus,

You'll discover when you do,

That it's Christmas,

Reall Christmas, for you.

Irreconcilable Differences.

As time goes by, I'm sure everyone will know more people, made friends with new people and their social circle would expand. It's a never ending cycle where we will always get to know more and more people. But getting to know that and actually being friends with them is of course a different story all together.

For the past few years, ofcourse I get to know more people, and I'm blessed that some of them turn out to be my true friends. But of course, there were some mistakes in the past as well, people whom I counted on as friends ended up, well...to be the opposite. Like I said before, it takes time to really know a person's true colour. If you're lucky, it would be revealed in 1-2 years time.

In an unfortunate situation...it may take, well 4-5 years.

The truth that we found out was distasteful. Very,very ugly. It's so unacceptable. I even felt disgusted.But because of our longstanding years of friendship, we tried to put this behind us. Really. We did tried. And for the past few months, despite knowing the truth, everything seems to be back to normal. Although there were times where there was a hint of sarcasm when we talked to her... but, I sincerely thought all of us manage to put this all behind us.


But...it didn't.

I'm not sure whether it's because of the fact that we found out the truth that drove all of us apart. Or that the truth kind of triggered us to realised how very different we all really were. The so-called bond that we used to have since our secondary school days seems to have just vanished in mere months. It's like we can no longer have a proper conversation together.

I truly wish that our group wouldn't split up anymore. The same scenario occured about 3 years ago, still leave a bitter taste in me. And I don't want the same to occur again. I tried mending things, I attempted an outing between all of us. But, it just didn't turn out well. In fact, it just proved that our differences are no longer reconcilable.

There are so many things about them that we can't accept anymore, and no doubt...there are some part of us that they find unworthy too.

We had tried avoiding this for months, but it seems that we can no longer avoid the inevitable. It's even more apparent now that I have to accept the fact, that our group is definitely getting smaller. I just don't want to have another confrontation.

I don't deny that I preferred the way we are now. It's just that I don't think I can handle it getting smaller anymore.

So please, my dear friends. Please let it stay the way it is now.

Highland Trip with the Girls.

As mentioned in my previous post, I get to know some girls in my class better recently -- Jilly, Zizi and Sarah..and last Weds was our 1st trip together. Rowena was suppose to join us too..but she ffk us last minute. >.<

Well, it did not started off well cause the bus tickets were already sold out for the entire day! After discussing for a while, we decided to take the cab up and it costs us each RM45 -- 2 ways.

Then once we reached there, we purchased our outdoor theme park ticket which costs us another RM44 per person. Since it was sooo bloody pack that day, we only manage to get on 4 rides (which did not include the solero thingie and corkscrew!)

Well, the weather was sooo HOT that day! Although we're on the top of a mountain, but it's just too sunny and we barely felt cold at all! We also felt a little bit out of place when we stepped into the outdoor themepark, why? because we realised that we were surrounded by high schoolers and families. *sigh* can no longer deny the fact that we're getting older, it can only be compensated by the fact that we're all getting wiser as well.. (:

Despite such feelings, it won't stop us from acting really crazy there and toook lots of pics~

Zizi, myself and Sarah.

Us with the London Bus.

I like this! (:




I love taking candid shots!

Both these pics look perfect! Cause we took multiple shots of this! hehee

Pengada Zi

Sarah Kate.

We left Genting abour 4pm and head down to Sg Wang for dinner and some shopping. It was a greaat day! Looking forward for more outings with them!

woosh. it has been quite some time since i last update my blog! this week had been a super BUSY week! well, there's lots of stuff to update.

For the past few weeks, I actually get to know some of my new CLP classmates better -- Jilly, Zizi and Sarah Kate.

Jilly -- Rowena's friend from Cardiff. She's very pretty and almost as noisy and loud as Rowena!

Zizi & Sarah -- The two hot girls, almost never without each other and they always "mengada"!

Since our college lets us off one week earlier for Christmas, we are sooo pump up to have day trips!

Yesterday Jilly, Zizi, Sarah and I went to Genting (Rowena didn't go cause she last min FFK!)

Then today Jilly, Rowena, Baby Jan and me went to Melaka for another day trip *woo hoooo*

There are lotsss of photos which I'll upload next time, cause I'm tooo tired now as I gotta get up early tomorrow as well.

I'm really glad to get to know some of my classmates better, they are all very fun to hang out with! (:

I Graduated!

Finally, I'm now officially a law graduate! Well, actually I knew it since last August since our results were out then, but then...after going through the convocation ceremony then only it will seems more real, right?

Well, I know initially I'm not really in the mood for convo. I felt kind of dull about the whole thing. But, well..that feeling definitely change on convo day itself.

On the 8.12.09 was our convo day and we were all suppose to gather at the Plenery Hall (KLCC Convention Centre) at 930am for rehearsal. The main purpose was just arrange all of us, to make sure we know where we stand etc. I ended up beside Vanessa. The girl that I always sit together with in class since A-Lvl.

After that, we can collect our robes and go home. For me, after collecting my robe, I went to Shu Umera counter in Isetan for a makeover. Well, since I'm not an expert in putting on make up, I better leave it to the expert, and of course it costs me RM as well. It's not that expensive, RM70, it's quite acceptable and I like the make up she did for me.

Rushed home after that to freshen up and of course take pics with my family.

That's me. Fully robed. With my graduation flowers. I love the flowers a lot, cause it has purple colour on it and it's HUGE!

Me, gorgor,mommy and daddy. *missing jie*

Daddy then drove all of us to KLCC. I'm suppose to reach there by 430pm fully robe. And everything happened in a rush! Rush here, rush there..to take pics, make sure our robes are not lopsided and our mortar board is not too lose etc.etc.

Vanessa and I after collecting our scrolls.

SuSean,HuiWen.

Bro Lim and Jian.

Fufu (:

Dear Justin and Me. I'm sooooo touched that he was there that night. (:

After the ceremony, all of us need to head to the Banquet Hall to take our class photo. It takes us forever to line up and to wait. And finally....we took our class photo where we wave our mortar board in the air! (supposedly we have to throw it into the air, BUT...the photographer just asked us to waved it! )

Then after that we took lots of individual pictures too. There are just toooo many pics and I'm a bit lazy to upload it all here (but it's all on my FB) Then most of the girls then rush to the ladies to change into our dinner wear.

Mr Reuben with the girls. I love this pic!

Ms Meera. She's the one that made it possible for me to achieve an A for my Company Law. Thank you, Ms Meera! (:

LiHong - My IP "sifu"

My dear aunt, uncle and cousins came as well.

Throughout the 3 years of my LL.B course, I learnt A LOT. I understand more about law, its applicability, how to argue it out. The more I learned, the more certain I know that being a lawyer is what I want for future. Not only that, many lecturers had become a real source of inspiration.

Looking back at what I had done for the past 3 years, I'm quite proud to say that I have no regrets. I manage to enjoy myself thoroughly without compromising my education. I always believe in studying hard and partying hard. The more I party, the more I study because I knew that some of my peers may be using the time studying whilst I'm out there getting tipsy.

Of course, knowing how to draw the line is very extremely important. There were times I felt that I crossed the border, but thank God it didn't affect my result. I knew that once my result is affected, I can no longer turn back the time.

Even more crucial is that for the past three years, God's presence had became more apparent to me too. He constantly guide me through everything and I thank the Lord for blessing me with great results. I know that the Lord love each and everyone of us so much, and that He will answer our prayers, if we ask Him without doubt.

But of course, I know we can't just simply ask without any effort in our part.

I am proud of what I had achieved today, but I know that I still have a long way to go.

My next aim? Is to complete my CLP in ONE SITTING! If possible, to get another 2:1 in CLP.

And after that? It's either LL.M or start my pupillage.

So my subsequent aim in future (for the short run) is to complete my LL.M and to be called to the Bar in the next 2-3 years.

I still have sooo soooo much to accomplish. Knowing that fact, yet I'm still here blogging instead of studying my Civil Procedure!

Well, that's all for now. Convo-fever is over. It's time to really BUCK UP and STUDY! wish me luck! *crossed fingers*

Crapping at 4.15am.

it's now 4.15am. i'm so so tired! why am i still awake then? Thanks to MrKJ's weekly test. although it's just a test, but i'll feel guilty if i dont even try to revise. so here am i, at 4 something in the freaking morning.

i'm sooo glad that our college is letting us off one week earlier! *woooots* this is the 1st time for the last 4 years we actually had 3 weeks break! previously is only about 1 week + only for holidays like Raya/Chinese New Yr/Deepavali. we were sooo pump up to have a trip somewhere, but the problem is we can't seem to be able to decide where to go!

well, i just want to go SOMEWHERE! everyone seems to be going everywhere! Wendy is now in Taiwan, Vanessa is going off to Bali next Monday, my sister is still in New York (i miss her so badly!), Jan going to Singapore to meet her bf , LiHong going to Bangkok and SueAnne going to Japan again soon. Seems like i'm the only one that's stuck in old KL. :(

well, i'm currently trying to fill up my Christmas holidays!
can't wait to go high tea with my babies! this would be the 1st time we go high tea together (since winnie is complaining that our only activity is clubbing...) and shopping and taking lotsssss of pics!

aiks. enough crapping already...gotta go back to my sentencing notes. :(

Convo?

tomorrow is my Convocation day. somehow, i still have not feel any excitement about it yet, despite people around me had been buzzing with excitement. last sunday when i was in the ladies (as usual, the best gossiping spot in college) they were discussing about their heels. because for the last few years, without fail there would be a few people that would slipped/fall whilst walking on the stage to collect their scroll, and most of them were girls. (i myself witnessed it) and the worst one was when this girl fall towards those V.I.Ps sitting in front. good thing it was on one of our lecturers instead of the judges. so the girls in the ladies were discussing about bringing their heels for the rehearsal to try.....and it goes on and on and something about dresses as well.

sigh. maybe it is because 2 of my close friends are not coming for Convo. so just me and Vanessa. and the fact that this whole Convo cost me and my dad lots of money. (well, mostly my dad lah)

yea, i know it's a one in a lifetime event, so i should really, really enjoy that moment.

maybe i will when i'm actually there itself. hhmmm.

The Taste of Losing.

i have to admit that i'm the type of person that can accept losing easily. maybe throughout these years, i didn't really face situation where i truly felt that i'm totally losing out. for the past 5 years, i'm quite socially active. i hang out often with my friends. i had a permanent part time job which can support my occasional yamcha sessions, clubs, birthday celebrations and pubs. i did fairly well for my education, in fact...i'm proud to say that i had finally finished my degree programme. :) it was part of my "kiasu-ness" and the fact that i need to "keep face" that kind of motivated me to study harder as well. (of course i love what i'm studying as well lah..)

but lately, my self-confidence had kind of shattered. i realised that, maybe i'm not as good as i always i thought. i finally had a real taste of losing, and it's not sweet at all. i keep asking myself, what is lacking in me? wasn't i good enough? i did a lot of self-reflection, and there is only one possible conclusion, i'm just now good enough. nothing complicated.

although i felt slightly bitter, but i'm going to take it as a lesson to learn. there are many parts of me that needs improvement.

there's still so, so, so much for me to learn.

and today, we had our 1st lectures on ethics. in a way, it inspires me to go into litigation even more. and it really changes my initial perception towards practitioners. it just shows how naive i was. and, really..it's a non-stop learning process. i'm already now looking forward to the day to be called! :)

Thank You, Mr Vignesh.

Well, today is another typical Sunday for me, where my class would end about 5pm. At about a quarter before 5, i started fidgeting around, my eyes keep glancing my watch..kind of started on packing up my pens etc etc. Finally, sharp 5pm, MrR lets us off. I rush to the washroom and back to class, took my bag.

Then, YinShin told me something.Something very shocking, Mr Vignesh passed away today. I was feeling sad and memories of him came rushing back into my mind. Emotions overwhelmed me.

Mr Vignesh was my tutor for Criminal Law back in my 1st year, and occasionally he would substitute for Contract Law as well. Even though he only taught me for a year, but he can still remembers me and my batch mates. We would always greet each other whenever we bump into each other in college.

Mr Vignesh is one of the most patient lecturer I ever had. Never once I see him getting angry or even raised his voice to students.

I didn't even have the chance to properly thank him for what I manage to achieve today. I took things for granted, that I would always see him around. There is no doubt that Mr Vignesh played a role, not only in my education..but all other ATC students as well.

I'm very sorry to hear this news. I wanted to attend his funeral, but was told that he was already buried.

Mr Vignesh, thank you for everything. Everything that you had taught ue. Now that you're with the Lord...may you rest in peace. You will always be remembered.

So, What Now?

A lot had happened to me on Thurs. As I mentioned, Thurs is going to be a very gan jeong day. But no matter how much I prepare myself for that day, it will never be enough. :(

I'm now left in a state of dilemma. I really do not know what I should or shouldn't do. I do not know which path should I take, which is the better one. I don't want to make any mistake at this stage, as I might regret it for the rest of my life.

I can't blame anyone for not telling me this before, I myself was aware of it, just that I am not aware the level of seriousness of it, until last Thurs. sigh.

I have lots of serious thinking and weighing to do.

I prayed hard to God, asking Him...what should I do? Which should I chose?

Every steps I'm taking now, every words I'm saying now seems to be affecting my life greatly. Much more than I had ever anticipated.

Gan Jeong Thurs!

tomorrow is my BIG interview! really damn gan jeong! seriously no idea what it would be like, since i never officially go for any job interviews before (my tuition one doesn't count!) sigh. really hope i'll do well in that interview and be awarded the scolarship and pupillage. *gan jeong*** pray hard i won't stutter the way i did during my IELTS speaking test. *shivers*

speaking of IELTS, another reason why tomorrow would be damn gan jeong is because my IELTS result would be released tomorrow! supposedly we can get access to our result online at 9am sharp, unfortunately that would clash with my interview, and since i need to rush to class after that, i need to collect it by hand after my interview.

so...lot's of things would happen tomorrow. wish me LUCK!

*praying hard*

Shoe Split Open.

last friday, a few of us were informed by MrDaniel to attend a meeting in one of KL's most reputable law firm on monday (today). the purpose of the meeting is the firm wants to meet some of us and to introduce their firm's operation. well, we were told to wear formally, and me being me, honestly..i dont own any working attire at all! this was due to the fact that i never work in an office or anywhere similar. yea, it's like so pathetic right?

sigh, since weekend is usually filled with classes, i can only shop for the attire on sunday after class, so i was with my mom in 1u, trying to get something presentable. we ended up in G2000 and i manage to get a knee-length skirt which cost us RM179. i felt really guilty using so much money on just a skirt, considering the fact that i vowed to myself to save more. :(

whereas for the top, i decided not to buy a new one, i'll just borrow from my sister. (hehee! thank goodness she din bring all of them to NY!)

so today, i leave house way ahead of time, so that i won't be late and plus the fact i never been there before. i met up with jacquelyn at the LRT station and we actually kind of lost our way. finally we manage to get the direction there, i suddenly felt that my shoes became damn lose. then i look down.

OMG! MY SHOE SPLIT OPEN!

i was like..omg omg omg! what now? i look around me...seeing whether there is any cobbler or shoe shop. then keep checking my watch, ok..we still have 30 mins... cool down cool down... i asked one of the security there, whether there's any cobbler there, and he said just across the road *THANK GOD* and jac accompany me there, and yea..there's the cobbler!

sigh. the cobbler told me that it will take about 15 mins, whilst we were waiting, we bump into Mr Lim and LiHong, and they were heading towards the mamak beside the cobbler, so we joined them.

after 15 mins, i went back to the cobbler, inside me..i know that the cobbler will charge me slightly more higher than the usual rate..it's pretty obvious that i'm desperate. he charged me RM9. well, a little bit lesser than what i expected...i thought it will cost me rm10. so not that bad larh.... at least i dont need to limp around the firm with my spoilt shoe.

when it's almost time, all of us went up to the firm and the meeting begins. we learnt more about the operation of the firm, exactly what areas of expertise they had. and being such a big firm, it has various departments there, and i know it's a great place to be trained.

well, our interview will be on thursday morning. and i'll be sending my shoes to the cobbler tomorrow cause i realised that the left side one looks kind of faulty too. and i'll make sure that it won't split open on thursday!

Random.

Just a random posts about my babes. *hearts*

Baby Teng.

Baby Li.

Baby Jan

Baby Nie.

Just want to thank you guys for staying by my side, our numerous yamcha/bitching sessions, and for such a great friends! (:

Time is Running.

another week has passed by. time really passed so-damn FAST! well, as usual every Saturday evening, MrKJ will give us test on CPC. and since today we sat quite behind, so i can actually flip out our notes to refer the answers. and really, the questions he gave is not very difficult, the problem is that i CAN'T remember those cases/principles because it's just way TOO MUCH!

well, usually he'll stand in front of the class and do his own reading and give us about 15 mins to complete the test, but God knows why this time he keep walking round and round the class. well, and obviously he noticed that most of us actually referred to the notes.

and finally after collecting our answer sheets, he started "lecturing" us about why we shouldn't refer to the notes. i know he's expressing his disappointment in us and keep emphasising the fact that we shouldn't slack, for the next 7-8 months.

i was actually a bit shaken up after his "speech". he told us that in about 5 weeks time he'll be finishing the syllabus! GOODNESS, the entire Criminal Procedure! and, i can't remember a shit! i haven't even really read the notes/textbook. i know saying that "i have no time" is not a valid excuse. sigh. i really,really got to BUCK UP!

Unlucky Bitch.

today is such an UNLUCKY DAY!



well, as usual i've class on thurs, from 10am-3pm. Since i slept late last night (as usual >.<) but this time was because i need to rush my Statement of Claim for MsMunita's class. sigh. so damn shit, i "act smart" don't want to refer to MrJoseph's SOC sample, just draft one by myself by only referring to MsMunita's sample which was based on other question. Ended up, i forgot to put in the 2nd Dedendant's name and i didn't plead for the cost of care! so damn shit!!! my client will end up suing me back.... :(



anyways, i was feeling so damn sleepy during class, when it was about 2pm, i'm longing to faster go home and SLEEP! thank goodness MsMunita didn't extend the time, class ended at 3pm sharp. so i quickly pack my stuff and head towards my car.

as usual practice, before unlocking my car doors, i'll make sure that it's all locked 1st. this time, i unlock the passenger seat(mine need to lock/unlock manually cause the alarm spoilt long time ago), then i open the door. suddenly the alarm rang. i was shocked, because i it has been years since i actually heard that car alarm rang! i even doubted whether it was my car or not. but since it was really loud and other cars seem, erm..not theirs larh, so i knew it was mine. i panicked. thinking, how on earth the alarm was actually triggered.

i called my mom 1st, since it's her car, and...well, she don't know how it happens too. so she called my dad. whilst all that happened, the alarm stopped, so i tried opening the door again, and the alarm went on again! sigh. it must be going on for quite sometime till the parking staff came over to checked. he get another man (which i think is more pro in this type of alarm/car thingie) and i explained to him that it's IMPOSSIBLE for the alarm to trigger cause i DON'T even have the car remote key thing! then my dad called, he was trying to explain to me how to off the car alarm and where the lock is, ofcourse, being totally illiterate about cars/engines...i open up the boot instead of the bonnet. (i know i'm totally stupid!) anyways, the parking staff asked me to pass the phone to him, and he manage to find the lock. UNFORTUNATELY, i dont have that "small key" to switch off the alarm. so my dad has to go all the way back home to get the key. sigh.

so i head back to college to wait for my dad, several friends told me that it might be the battery's problem, that it might reached its lifespan already, so i definitely can't drive it back. i was shocked. OMG. then how?! sigh. worrying and worrying.

finally i dad arrived. and he manage to turn off the alarm and i asked him about the battery thing. thank goodness it's still OK.

sigh. unlucky day for me. but good thing my dad's able to rush over to help me! thanks daddy!

Banana Leaf Rice at Bangsar

FINALLY, after being a Malaysian for 21 years, this is my 1st time having banana leaf! well, those nasi lemak on banana leaf doesn't count! well, it was actually Wendy's idea to had banana leaf, and there's this famous place for banana leaf at Bangsar called Sri Nirwana Maju located along Jalan Telawi 3 (Opposite Bangsar Village 2).

That place was really, really packed. we had to wait for about 10 mins before we manage to get a seat. Ragini told us that once we are done eating, we have to leave that place...it's not really allowed to sit down and chit chat after the meal.

Anyways, i was quite excited, considering this is my 1st time. i'm like total blur case! ok, 1st the staff will lay out the banana leaf.

well, the banana leaf given is much thicker than our usual nasi lemak ones, but ofcourse u can't poke it too hard if not ur gravy will spill!

next, the staff will scoop out the side dishes consisting of kangkung, cucumbers and fried bitter gourd. (this is the 1st time i actually enjoyed eating bitter gourd..it's really crispy!)

then they will scoop the rice. it's up to u whether u want normal rice or indian rice (it has lesser carbs!) and it's up to u how big u want the proportion to be. and later the gravy will be given, can chose - fish curry, chicken curry, "dal"

extra side dishes - pickles, dried chili, fried chicken, rendang chicken, fish etc will be given upon request. ohya..and pappadam too! it's the thing in the middle inside the basket. Wendy loves those!

and the gooood thing about having banana leaf is that its price is very, very reasonable. it's a filling lunch and the total cost is RM 29 (3 pax) !

after our heavy lunch, we shop around in Bangsar (well, only Wendy shops whilst me and Ragini just browse through the various dresses/tops/heels/pants) There are tons of shops there and i can never remember which shop is located at which Jalan Telawi. T___T

ohya! and when we were about to head to PurpleDotz (very near Starbucks) i saw DJ GOLDFISH!!!!!! i was stunned for a moment! he must really like starbucks, cos seen him at different Starbucks few times already...

Ragini and i whilst waiting for Wendy who's in the fitting room.

IELTS.

fuhh...finally, last saturday i sat for my IELTS. well, the exam starts at about 9, so we were required to register around 8-8.45am. i reached the exam place (Corus Hotel) so damn early...around 7am! my dad scared it might be jam, hence the early arrival. i stoned at the hotel lobby for around an hour, then finally the registration table is open. there were about 200+ ppl there.

once i registered, deposited my belongings to the person in charge, i went into the examination hall. once im seated, i look at the stationary given. it's a PENCIL and an eraser. initially i thought the pencil is used for us to shade our answers on the answer sheet, so i think..hmm, maybe later only they will distribute the pen for the writing test. and the pencil supplied is not those 2B pen, it's those type of pencil we used in primary school, where there's like a few bullets and the lead is damn short, once it's blunt...u pluck it out and then put it in from the back of the pencil..?? well, i seriously hate that pencil cause i can't write too hard! and.......... i have to use the same bloody pencil for the writing test as well!!! ~#$%$^&*&((*@#

sigh.

and, i dont think i did very good for my listening. i missed like 2-3 questions! sigh. i didnt even know i missed it until the answer for the subsequent question was mentioned....im so damn stupid!

that module ended at about 12pm, so i had roughly 2 hours before my speaking test, so i went to klcc to get something to eat and stone there for a while, then i head to British Council for my speaking test.

my speaking test was HORRIBLE! i can understand my examiner's accent (though i can't identify which accent that is), but my mind went BLANK! seriously, she asked me to described my house, and i said "it's a semi-linked-terrace house..and it's double storey" wth?! semi linked????? sigh. sigh. should have bullshit and said something easy like an aparment. basically the topics that were asked weren't that hard, but that...just at that moment, i'm so damn nervous, i just can't think straight! :(

sigh, whatever is done, is already done. anyways, i'll know my result next Thursday..... *gan jiong*

Looooong Day!

today had been an extremely TIRING day! i only slept about 2 hours yesterday night, woke up around 830am since class starts at 10am. took the ktm to college, since on thurs mom's using the car. class ended at about 3pm, since i made an appointment with Mr Reuben, i had to stay back for a while after class.

i'm very,very thankful because my lecturers are very,very helpful! since i needed two reference letters from two different lecturers (for some application thingie), they did it promptly for me! in fact, i asked Ms Meera last wednesday, and she did it on the spot for me! and same goes to Mr Reuben. not only that, they wrote a very positive reference letter for me! really, i'm extremely grateful!

well, after class i rushed towards the lrt station since i'm suppose to meet up with Wendy elsewhere, and the weather doesn't look too good. it started drizzling already. sigh, thank goodness the rain became heavier once i reached the station.

we head to 1u to meet up with dear Catherine for dinner, and as usual...our dinner took hours, since we were talking non-stop!

me and Wendy hang around in 1u for a while since Wendy's getting a new squash racquet and the ball too. we tested the "bounci-ness" of the various types of balls for quite some time too.

after that...i waited for Winnie,Tian,Li to come over to pick me up to head to Sunway Pyramid to meet up with Angel and IeVon. i had not seen them for ages! knew them when we were form5 during our band camp in their school -- Keat Hwa High School at Kedah. it's great catching up with them, ohya..Chee Jack was there too. We were there for hours too, catching up with each other,sharing news and erm..occasional bitching too. aiks, seems like lately i keep bitching around about other ppl. yeaa..i know it sounded immoral, but sometimes..it's just unavoidable..u know?

well, i'm so damn tired now. thought of doing another listening practice for my IELTS, then i realised the CD provides only one practice for listening, which i already did that yesterday.... T__T

sigh. well, at least now i can go to bed now.

goooooooooood night!

Monday!

i love Mondays! really. i do. unlike most people, Monday is the start of another week of work/classes/etc.etc. for me, i can sleep the whole of Monday if i want to. and that's what i'll usually do. like today, i woke up at 3pm! i had more than 12 hours sleep! i know, it's not good to sleep that long. but, really..i can't help it! i tried setting my alarm, so that i'll be up by 1130...well, i keep pressing the snooze till...the alarm just stops by itself lah. hehee..

sigh. but Monday is always a very un-productive day for me. i barely study or read anything. i'll just drag it till after 12am usually, since Tuesday i only need to work for about 1 1/2 hours.

aiks.it's almost time to hit the books. hhmm...maybe i'll watch something on tv 1st. hehee..

good night!

Essential Stationaries.

my essentials.

saw the photo up there? yep.that's what i need during class and when i'm studying. during my A-Levels, which was in 2005, i tried various types of highlighters, coloured pens, pens, rollers and even the papers i used during class.

and after various trials&errors, now i'll only use stabilo highlighters. why? i like their yellow colour as it's sharp enough. some other brand's yellow is quite dull. but i felt that the colours sold are quite limited. they should have more different shades of purple! not only that, it's not this stabilo highlighter is not very bulky, so i can easily fit all of it into my pencil case.

whereas for the coloured pens, i use stabilo as well since it's the only brand that provide the most variety of colours and it's ballpoint is quite fine, it's useful to add in short notes at the margin of my paper.

and the most,most important is my G1 pens.i'm proud to say that that 2 pens you see above was bought when i started Inter (2006) it's still in a good condition until today and all i have to do is get the refils. and i must,must use only 0.7 - blue. not black. why? it's more appealing to me lah. i like that it's thick enough (not too thick). i know that if the ballpoint is thicker, the ink will finish faster, and that...i think is one of the disadvantage of that pen. i think i spent hundreds just on the refils. class started around mid-September, and now is only the beginning of November, my 1st round of refils are already finished! (1st round as in, i'll buy 10 refils) and i bought my 2nd round already. sigh.

i even had a specific pen to use for examination purpose only. i was told not to use inked pen during examinations as there's possibility of examiner spilling his/her drink or water on my answer script, and everything will be gone! although i much prefer to use ink pen, i trained myself using ballpoint pen (for me, extra effort need to be put in when i'm writing, as the "ink" for ballpoint pen can't come out as smoothly as inked ones) -- i know i sounded like some obsessed-with-pen-freak, but i can't help it! (i was damn surprised that we're not allowed to bring our own stationaries for IELTS! what if i get some stupid pen without a good grip???! )

next..rollers. ahh...this is essential. i'll be very pissed with myself if i didn't bring it to class! because, i tend to use it a lot. and... i can't even remember this is the number-what-roller is used since September. and i only use whipper-mini roller. i tried lots of brands before, and i'll always get frustrated if it can't roll on my paper properly, or it breaks etc.etc. it cost me about RM11 for 3. and..really, i can't remember how many rollers i had bought. sigh.

and whoever created Post It, i have to salute and thank you! it really makes life much much easier, for example u want to jot down some important things in ur textbook, and sometimes there's not enough space, all i need to do is just write it on Post It and stick it! and sometimes when our lecturers realised they missed something important and wants us to take down notes (despite moving on to the next subtopic) i just have to take out my Post It and write it there.

ohyaa! and different highlighter colours had different function.

• yellow - cases and judges' names. and i'll underline it with my red ink pen
• orange - Acts, Directions, Rules - underlined with red ink pen too
• green - academicians, articles - underlined with red ink pen.
• blue,purple,pink - important points. depending on my mood to use which colour at that time.

i just love seeing my notes full with colours, colours, colours! it made studying,reading a more "enjoyable" process.

I So Need To Scream NOW!

it's now 3 in the morning. though i had hours of class today, yet im still awake now...thanks to MrKJ. his class just now really freaks me out. he did Charge question with us today. about 6 ques? and....i realised i don't know what the shit the question is asking as well. all i know it's a Charge question. sigh. i feel so damn stupid.

i spent hours reading on his book, and i think i understand what Charge is.
but when i read the question.... *blur* i dont get it at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i still can't identify the issues nor the answers!!!!!!

i spent too much time on stupid Charge, and now i'm too tired to do any exercise for my test next Saturday. yes, i'm taking an English test next Saturday. T_________T

sigh. it's been a LOOOONG time since i took a proper English test. yea, the last time was during SPM where getting A1 is almost effortless.

i started on Reading exercise yesterday, and only half of my questions were correct! wtf!!! the passages given are seriously not easy. sigh. sigh. sigh.

there are just so...so...so...many things that must be done right.

• i must get the required marks for my English test, cause i dont want to resit as it will cost me RM550!
• i cannot just study for my English test, as i need to constantly study for my stupid current course.
• i cannot afford to resit that exam! not only it'll be financially costly, but i don't want to resit the Oct paper nor the following year's paperssss!!!!!

*SCREAMS*

Dramas. Dramas. Dramas.

it's Friday night again. for most people, it will be the beginning of their long-awaited weekend, for them to slack,rest & relax. for me and my classmates, well..it's the start of a long-terrible-boring-weekend-of-lectures.

well, i just reached home not too long ago from class, had dinner at about 10pm..i asked my mom to cook for me, cause i'm planning to save money, but my stomach was grumbling during dinner break, so i gotta get a small burger...so, ended up NOT saving money AND double dinner. :(

well, today...was quite a dramatic day. (well, for the past few weeks...lots of dramas had been happening in college, in my CLP class specifically).

ok, i think it was about more or less a month ago, my college had announced the day of our Convocation, the price and other details.

Each of us must pay RM180 to entitle us to attend the ceremony and the dinner thereafter. Any of our family members who wishes to attend must pay RM180 which is inclusive of both event. RM180 is just the admission ticket.

Each of us then have to pay RM388 for the rental of the robes (add another RM200 as deposit), and it's inclusive of several photos taken during the ceremony and a DVD of the whole event. If u want it with frames, u have to top up additional RM180 (normal black-brownish frames) or RM250 (gold frames with UOL logo carved). If we wish to have a family potrait taken, it will cost another RM130 inclusive of one photo frame and several pictures.

Well, after adding everything up....i have to admit that it's quite expensive. and..many other students thought so too. and last week, someone started a petition...something about they are against the overpricing of the Convocation event and the paper was circulating around class. well, honestly...i dont think it will be successful, because before the petition started..some other students had made payment to the photographer firm (including myself) but then again, i'm contractually bound to attend this convocation...so i wont be foolish to take any part in such petition as it may jeopardise my current status (long story). so all i can do is sit back and watch the fireworks.

Then today, the chairperson of our convocation came to our class...spent 30mins (which was taken from our lectures) to "discuss" with us the overprice issue. well, honestly....it's not really discussing..it's more like making a statement that everything had already been decided.

well, i can't blame her action. it's now 6th Nov, convo is scheduled on the 8th Dec. roughly a month.... it's not a short period, but i really dont think that there is sufficient time to engage a new auditorium or a new photographer. even if those were done, the outcome may not be very good, as everything will be done in a rush. and not to mention that it will be quite unfair for students who had made payment already (like me...hell, i paid RM2768 for this whole convo thing!)

well, some students got really aggressive...by demanding WHY we can't rent robes from other source etc.etc.etc. sigh.

well, there's a possibility that the college is actually collecting some commission out of this convo ceremony...but even if they did...i really don't think it's very wrong. for goodness sake, our fees is very, extremely reasonable. my tuition fees (exclude exams fees/UOL fees) for the entire degree course is less than RM20,000. Adding our exam fees and UOL fees, it will probably reach more or less RM50,000.

other University have the privilige of charging lesser or even free for their convocation ceremony, but...how much are they charging their students? hell..Taylor's a level is 3 times more than my a level fees in my college.

and for our current course...about 10 books were given F.O.C...provided we paid our tuition fees early.

sigh.


and..there are other dramas happening in college as well. i wonder how many more dramas are lined up for the year.

Turning 21.

Finally, i turned 21. everyone said that turning 21 is a BIG thing. but, honestly, in just one night...i don't feel much of a difference. i look the same. i feel the same. i think the only thing that's different is that i can actually legally go into clubs without worrying that they'll check my IC.

just a simple-mini celebration with my family, mom bought a Choc Cake from Secret Recipe. and since my sister is leaving on that day itself, so i really appreaciate it that we still manage to have time for birthday song. (:

lovely dinner in Coffee Ritual at ss14 with my friends from ATC. thanks u guys for coming!

• Fufu
• Jc
• Wendy
• Vanessa
• Daniel
• Yin Shin
• May Nee
• Ragini
• Seet Long
• Li Hong
• Eunice.
  
  

and of course, dinner with my babies and the guys. *hearts*

• Jan
• Winnie
• Sok Teng
• Pek Li
• Yew Wey
• Tuan Chin
• Alex
• Zheng Yang
• Eggie Tart.

and ofcourse, not missing the happening night we had in Poppy Garden. (:

Just want to thank ALL OF YOU for making my 21st a special. It's u guys that made it special, without u all, it will just be a day, same like others! (:

Dramas.Gossips. Bitching.

Dramas?Gossips?Bitching? Well, it seems like all those stuff had been filling my life up lately. Dramas everywhere. Once something happened, naturally we'll talk about it. Means gossiping about it larh. And if the gossiping gets too excited, or too heat up...and u started giving ur "opinion" about it, well...it's called bitching already. I myself seems to be doing it quite often with my friends lately. Yep. I bitch about people. Often or not? I'm not sure.

Although it's not generally a good thing for us to bitch about others, but if the others don't create so many dramas for us to "watch" or even found out about it accidentally, we won't gossip about it. Hell, we're all suppose to be friends!

Sigh. Problems after problems are popping out.

T____T

lately, i have been slacking a lot. i didn't read any of my notes. all the notes given by my lecturers are all jumbled up, it's so so so NOT organised. i felt so stupid especially on our last CPC class. we'll have a short test in the beginning of each CPC class, testing what we had learnt the previous week. i did not study at all, so everything comes from whatever that i can remember from last week. i had one majorly wrong answer, God knows how i can come to that answer. i'm not studying at all! it's not that i'm very extremely busy, but it's like i've NO TIME to study! i know...no time is an extremely lame excuse for a full-time student. well, since our lectures' time is so damn weird and LONG, i need the whole monday and half of the tues to recover. i feel so tired and haggard. . . and clubbing almost every Sat night for the past few weeks definitely contributed to my haggardness. well, how can i say no? it's my birthday party!

sigh. sigh.

how i wish there are more hours in a day. at least i've more time to study and to sleep. T___T

Unorganised Me.

all this while, i know im not a very organised person. especially in organising my own finance and my tuition notes. there are various times that i tried jotting how much i spent daily/weekly, or the purpose of my withdrawing money from the ATM and also the reason why i have to swipe my credit card. (well, the latter one i'll keep track larh).

I withdraw money quite frequently lately, as i know for the past 2 months, money was being transferred into my account and the money was used not only for my own purpose, i have to tranfser it to other people (Leo Stuff) as well as for the purpose of paying my exam fees etc.etc. Technology made it so convenient that we can just do online banking/transfer etc.etc..but the major drawback is that it will not be that convenient after all those multiple transfers/withdrawals were done for a person like me.

i kept all my receipts whenever i withdraw money, but it just keep piling in my wallet, and when i took it out to check, DOOM . i will be totally blur.

this is really,really BAD..cos in the event my money was withdraw by some stranger, i wouldnt even realise it! i'll think that...it must be me larh. need to buy this,buy that. SIGH. this is such a disorganised part of that i really really wish to change.

i know, action speaks louder than words....

sigh. so far, i think the best solution is for me to refrain myself from withdrawing money from the bloody ATM! aiks. wonder how long i can survive???

as for my tuition notes, sigh. everything is all so bloody jumble up! from my form1 - form5 notes. all messed up! i always wanted to organised it all, and put it neatly into a file for each form. sigh. but somehow, i never get to do it. after FOUR YEARS of teaching!

i always tell myself to jot down, till here i photocopied the notes for my students..but i always overestimate my memory power, i thought in the following week, i'll somehow remember i taught till where.

sigh. because of my lack of organisation, it resulted in me photocopying the same bloody notes for my students. and it's not just extra 1-2 sets. it's a lot. A LOT. i think after 4 years..i wasted more than 150 piece of A4 papers...not to mention the ink from the photocopy machine.(thank God my boss don't have access here...unless he google me, which is quite unlikely)

same things i told myself over and over again, yet i don't seem to be following my own advice. and here i am, reaching the final few months of my "teaching career"... i'm still the same. T___T