Hate Love.

LOVE can sometimes bring out the best in people. Because of love,we became more thoughtful, sensitive, caring and etc.etc.

but sometimes is backfired.

LOVE, can also bring out the worst in people.
It's unpleasant at all to witness the other part of a person whom i know for quite sometime when love backfired on him/her.

Love, can made someone unconsciously manipulating others and jealousy conquer the minds then our conscience.

Seeing all these, made me doubt. Doubt that in future i'll never be able to distinguish what is love and what is NOT love.

I even fear that, one day...i'll hate love.

Exploration?

Finally, i've one WHOLE day i can stay at home and relax. my night class on Tuesday was cancelled! YIPPEE! for the past 4 days, i barely sleep. only about 3-4 hours sleep at night before i head to college etc.etc.well, my lack of sleep is not due to studying ..BUT, because of Twilight and New Moon. Shin lend me her books on the vampire love story, so i can't stop myself from reading it...

well, yesterday after only 3 hours of sleep, i woke up and went for tuition.although i was teaching, i felt like a zombie.i just talk and explain...i can barely feel myself. sigh, im too exhausted. after tuition, i went straight to my skin clinic at Jalan TAR, once i was inside..i was like..SHIT, so many ppl..gotta wait for ages...... once i register, i sat on the sofa and SLEEP. i waited for almost 1 1/2 hour, finally it's my turn.i went in for not more than 5 mins and im DONE. -.- damn... why do i feel like it's wasting my time?

since i have class later in the evening, i'll be hanging out with wendy later so she pick me up from the clinic...and i dunno what's up with wendy yesterday.she's in the mood to explore. our intial plan it so go Solaris, a new shopping mall in Mont Kiara...so we found our way to Jalan Duta, made a wrong turning, go all the way up to this expensive housing area in Bukit Tunku. it's up on the hill, so we were like going up and up and up...and i told wendy, no lar..let's turn back down now..then she said... "explore mah" then i...was like... oooookayyy... well, we end up turning down, cause we reached a dead end.

anyways, we end up in Bangsar area, then contemplate for a while whether we should just shop there.then wendy said, she's wearing long sleeve and can't bear walking outdoors...so...we turn back, trying to get to mont kiara...then somehow we end up in TTDI then changed our mind, maybe we should go 1U instead... then wendy said, hmm...a bit far from college, so we decided to TURN BACK to Midvallllley... damn za dao right?

so our so-called exploration brought us to Midvalley...

Life is Fragile.

everyday, when we live our life...going to college, eating, sleeping, clubbing or studying, we never once stop to think or tell to our ownself that life is short and that we should cherish our lives more. even though at the back of our head, we know that "life is short"

until something happened around us, then only we stop to ponder.

i know that i'm like that.

just today, i found out that a schoolmate of mine just passed away. and he is just 2 years elder than me. at that moment, i realised how fragile our lives are. but, no matter how prepared a person is about the shortness of our lives, we still can't get out of the shock.even if it happened to someone that we barely know, sadness will still filled our heart.

once i reached home,i was still pondering upon this.thinking...why?why?why?it's not easy that God gave us life, why then He took it away so easily from us?it's not that i'm blaming God..but...sigh. i dont even know what i'm thinking.

Du Lan betul....

Today - 16 JAN 2009, class cancelled AGAIN! damn pik chik...i just got into the train for about 10 mins, suddenly a friend text me "hey eu class cancelled. how many can u inform....?" *Sigh* friday is my ONLY rest day, and i need to go down alllll the way to KL just to have 2 hours of class since our lecturer felt that he's unable to finished the syllabus......

arghhh!!! du lan betul !

Sunday KTM.

as usual, Sunday morning..i'll have to take the train to college.my timing was perfect today, once i tap my TnG card, the train came. once i got into the train,lucky me..manage to find a seat.the train is not very pack at that time..about 11am. i'd been taking train every Sunday for more than a year already, so i know what is it like in the train on sundays.there will usually be quite many immigrants, since sunday is their only day off.and most of the time 80% of them will leave at KL Station.

i board in Kepong Sentral Station, so the next station will be Kepong Station.once the train reached Kepong, the door opened...OMG.the amount of Bangladeshi came in was like...almost overwhelming. i mean, usually Kepong area, mostly Chinese will board the train. they filled up almost half of the train compartment! talking loudly and i smell a faint smell of alcohol too...

Few minutes later, Segambut station....WTh? we became Myanmar no.2.

I know that about one year ago, i blog about this foreign workers too, saying sth like when i was in the train, i felt that Malaysians were the minority in the train...

and now, one year later...it became worse. it's not that i'm against immigrants or foreigners...im not discriminating.but...being around this ppl, i actually feel unsafe. sometimes they will just stare at u. i mean, im sure Malaysians living in other countries actually do that right?! sighhh....

Happy New Year ?

it has been more than one week that 2009 came...in this one week, can i say that it's a happy new year? hhhmm....well, there are some things that i realised that i kind of lose in 2009;it is kind of drifting away, and i fear that as time goes by, it'll continue to drift, no matter how hard i grasp on it... did anything then happen to balance it...?as in..bad things follow up with good things, the concept of balance..yin and yang...u know? errr...so far, the answer is no.
sigh. not only that, my syllabus is ending soon meaning revision time is reaching.i really dislike those times, intense classes everyday, then once home...another intense self-revision. (as if our current timetable are not loaded with enough classes..)

everything kind of going down now. looks kinda...dark. sighh.........
where's the light?! where's the energy to boooost me up?! where where where?!!!

God..what's happening to me? what's with these negative thoughts?! argggghhh....
negativity... *shoo*shoo*shoooooooooooooooooo*

Exams ALREADY?!

after about 2 weeks of holidays - filled with yamcha session and just chilling around, i had to drag myself to class yesterday.summore it's a saturday...although it has been 3 years since i had classes on weekends, yet i still feel that weekends meant to be spent at home snoring.sigh, not to mention on saturday class im quite alone..none of my close friends took IP. and class drag from 2pm-6pm.

sien sien sieenn!

finally during our 1st break, i rush to the loo and then hang out at the stairs. then a friend came over, we just chat about exam...then only i realised...

JURISPRUDENCE PAPER IS ON THE 13TH OF MAY!

OMG OMG OMG!

our very 1st paper is juris...SHARKS! plus..it's on my dear winnie's birthday...SIGH.i'm so sorry nie, im going to missed ur 21st birthday. i promised i'll replace once my exams are over, ok?

I look at london website...and my timetable will be...

13th May - Jurisprudence and Legal Theory

15th May - EU Law (crap! only 2 miserable days to start memorising?! this is injustice!)

22nd May - Company Law (okok, about a week...do-able.)

4th June - IP Law (it's so unfair! the subject im taking myself is the blooody LAST PAPER!du lan betul! everyone can go party edi, i stuck with that paper..and it ends at 530pm!!!!!!!)

it felt just like YESTERDAY that i took my final exams.and now? final exams are approaching again. uggghh! not fair! some of my friends will finish by 22nd May!

i guess in few weeks time, it's time to ground myself.be a full time nerd. i can't let anything to jeopardise my final year exams..... *shiverssss*

Happy 2009.

Wow...it's already 2009! and what i did on new year's day? well..i sleep,mostly. sigh. what a good start...

i am just sitting here, thinking about 2008.going through the details...grasping on those memories. the bitter and the sweet. and wondering, whether i'd gain maturity, whether i'd learnt from my mistakes?

all i can hope now is that, i wont repeat the same mistakes. i know it's not possible for us humans to NOT make mistakes at all.since no one of us are perfect, plus...it's through mistakes that we gain maturity and knowledge. but just that i don't want to repeat the SAME ones.

so, dear 2009...please be goood to me. dont let my new year's resolution become a mere spoken wish.