Emotional Me.

though i'm having my finals tomorrow.though there are still many notes,cases,bullshits to be memorised.yet,somehow in between my notes and cases and exams-stress,i manage to find time to be EMO over something.well, since i can't go out anymore,so all i can do is vent out my emo-ness here.

i find it really,really ironic.how someone that u thought u know forever,someone whom u thought will be ur best friend forever.someone u thought that understand u best.someone that can always be there for u.can changed so much.and those changes took place in just about 1-2 months.did she really change?or maybe that is the person she actually is, and the person i thought i knew, the perfect girl i thought she was,was not real but my mere illusion.

i can still remember how we sort of encourage each other at this time last year.when we were having our finals too.we would call each other almost everyday to fret over exams.but this year?since study break started, nope scratch that, even during revision time in college, where we spent hours in college, we barely talk to each other.when study break started, not a single contact.it's not that i take the initiative to contact her,but it still hurts to think that she didn't do so as well.and it hurts even more when my simple good luck sms was un-replied.

i can honestly said that i don't really like the person she is changing into now.it makes me feel that the so-called friendship we had was so fake.and the person she is now, is just...so different.so,this is sort of like a consoling point that i lose a friendship.a friendship that was once very precious to me.

as time passes by, both of us will continue to drift apart.there is no doubt about this.maybe next year, this time we wouldnt even talk to each other in college anymore.BUT, will i feel different?or will i still be agitated over this?