Day 1.

29th May. 2pm. my first paper - Evidence. well, basically what happened that day was...i woke up at about 8 something. had breakfast, then take all the necessary vitamins and chicken essence, so that i'll be more energised for the day. after breakfast, i decided to do some last minute reading.make sure that i wont forget anything.

we reached the exam centre about 1230pm.too bad my lecturer didnt come to show us moral support...*disappointed* and it's like damn shit, we thought we reached earlier, we can sit at our place, make sure the table is not shaky, the chair is not shaky etc.basically make sure our seats are comfortable, since our arse is going to be attached there for the next 3 hours 15 mins. bloooody shit, the invigilators dont allow us in.

finally at about 150pm then they let us in!shit, just 10 mins before exam! so shit, thank God my table and chair are fine.

2pm.exam starts.

when i read the questions...

1st reaction. HELL.

2nd reaction. take deep breath.

3rd reaction: think, u stupid girl.

4th reaction: start planning and start writing.


anyways, on the same night, i called wendy.just to talk, we didn't really talk about the paper on our way home.i mean, i told her my part.but, she didnt really said anything about what she felt.then...when i finally heard what was going through in her mind.it's not that i was very shocked or surprise.she told me that her 1st reaction after reading the paper was to stand up and leave the exam hall.(by luck she sat just in front of me!) i told her, if she really do that, i'll
physically force her back into her seat. well, for some reasons, she finally reasoned herself up and start answering.

come to think of it, i saw some empty seats in the exam hall. some ppl decided not to face the paper at all.really, it takes real courage to face one's exams. the pressure of writing and answering and understanding, all at the same time.what we did in the whole 6 months of lectures, tutorials, revisions...would reflect in that 3 hours exams. *shiversss*

well, at least one paper is down.3 more to go. *sigh*

Emotional Me.

though i'm having my finals tomorrow.though there are still many notes,cases,bullshits to be memorised.yet,somehow in between my notes and cases and exams-stress,i manage to find time to be EMO over something.well, since i can't go out anymore,so all i can do is vent out my emo-ness here.

i find it really,really ironic.how someone that u thought u know forever,someone whom u thought will be ur best friend forever.someone u thought that understand u best.someone that can always be there for u.can changed so much.and those changes took place in just about 1-2 months.did she really change?or maybe that is the person she actually is, and the person i thought i knew, the perfect girl i thought she was,was not real but my mere illusion.

i can still remember how we sort of encourage each other at this time last year.when we were having our finals too.we would call each other almost everyday to fret over exams.but this year?since study break started, nope scratch that, even during revision time in college, where we spent hours in college, we barely talk to each other.when study break started, not a single contact.it's not that i take the initiative to contact her,but it still hurts to think that she didn't do so as well.and it hurts even more when my simple good luck sms was un-replied.

i can honestly said that i don't really like the person she is changing into now.it makes me feel that the so-called friendship we had was so fake.and the person she is now, is just...so different.so,this is sort of like a consoling point that i lose a friendship.a friendship that was once very precious to me.

as time passes by, both of us will continue to drift apart.there is no doubt about this.maybe next year, this time we wouldnt even talk to each other in college anymore.BUT, will i feel different?or will i still be agitated over this?

Double Ds Day.

THREE more days.it would be Double Ds Day. it's Do or Die.my first paper.Evidence.then Tort, Trust and last but not least LAND. for few weeks, i'd been trying to memorise all my notes.at the same time hoping and praying that the examiners wont give WEIRD or UNEXPECTED questions.

but, until about 3 days ago...i just feel so EMPTY. i dont know why...it's like im going through the same cycle for days and days.i felt almost robotic.i wake up, eat, stone, study, eat, stone, study an so on. then, i realised that my mind can't absorb anything anymore.i start to mixed up my topics in Trust.i keep thinking Secret Trust and Formalities are the same.then while i was memorising, i was thinking, why is the case different.where did i went wrong?! then i...SHIIT...WTF?it's not the same thing lar! stupid girl...arghh!

*sigh* then yesterday night, i was chatting with alex, he told me that they went clubbing at sanctuary yesterday night.i was so bloody jealous! here i am, sitting in front of my table, trying to jam as many infos in my small lil brain, while they are shaking their ass and having tons of FUN in sanctuary.although they didn't ask me, i know they meant well.it's for my own good."You just can't have everything you want..." yep, i know this, u know this, everyone knows this.

then, a few hours ago..while i was getting ready to bathe and then start my study session, winnie called.asked me, whether want to go shisha or not..at Rasta.i never been there before.my 1st reaction was...NO.i mean, that's the right thing to do right?i mean...exams are just 3 days away, and i'm like 10 years behind.although winnie and i know how MUCH i want to get out of my tiny room and have some FRESH air.but, finally i said no as well.then...an hour later...i si fat han, called alex.just to talk to him,winnie and chin.he said he can come over and fetch me out, yet i said no again.

then, i called one of my close friend, fufu.i mean...when u need to hear comforting voice, he's the man u call.i called him, just so that he can tell me that i made the right choice to stay at home and study and he may give me more justifications for my decision.DIM ZHIII, when i called, i thought he would be at home K-ing book too...BUT, he was outside yamcha-ing! WTH....he didn't tell me what i expected to hear from him, rather he said that i should go out instead.he gave me several reasons and...well, of course i took his advice.

i'm glad that i eventually went out. i met new people. we played silly games. we laughed a lot. we shisha-ed. it's great to chill once in a while.though for the first 30 minutes i was there, guilt was creeping in.thinking whether i would regret this. and that i should be at home studying instead. BUT, like i said, it's the right choice. i came home feeling more pump up to study.

well, that's all.back to my books. =)

while i was fretting over exams, fufu sent me something. and i would like to share it with all of you. especially To all LLB Students;

To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream, not only plan but also believe.

All the BEST for our exams!

Responsibility.

since young, i grew up thinking that adults are the most responsible group of people. i always equate responsibility with an adult.of course i always look up as my parents as being the responsible ones, plus my teachers and lecturers. and i always tell myself,no matter what i'm doing in future, i would be a responsible adult too.maybe because i'm working and studying simultaneously taught me how to handle responsibility earlier.

however, lately my perception towards such equation crumbled.not all adult are responsible.and this particular adult i'm talking about is not 30 or 40 years old.he is reaching 50 already!i know i'm not in the position to criticise the way he handle his tuition centre, no matter what he "makan garam" more than me.yet i cant help feeling pissed off! the way he run the centre lack professionalisme and it is so haphazard. there are countless time that he messed up my time with other tutors.i was even more shocked that he told my students that i did not come for class intentionally, when the night before he asked me not to come! WTF?! not to mention that my final exams are just around the corner...

yes, i know u might be thinking.."if it's so susah, then just quit the bloody job lar!" *sigh* action always speaks louder than words.i can't just abandon my students.plus, i really need those extra money. money...which reminds me, my boss promised me a pay raise since January...yet...

i really need to reconsider whether it's worth maintaining this high maintainence job, or i just drop off everything and start all over again. *sighh*

Meeting Up.

since our study break starts, i barely see my friends from college.all of us are busy studying for our stupid finals. some of them already finished their 1st paper. *sigh* i still have FOUR more to go. anyways, yesterday i manage to meet up with wendy and fufu at their place. the last time i met fufu was a month ago! *sigh* exams are making me dull.

well, since we didn't talk/see each other for so long, there were many catching up to do. we had the longest breakfast ever! it lasted from 8.30 - 11.30am. we went oldtown first for breakfast.

the nicest boy i know - fufu.

well, we talk non-stop over many silly things, exams etc etc. then..we decided to leave oldtown and headed to coffee bean in OUG instead. too bad there isnt any starbucks nearby.

our drinks.

Me.

fufu and i.

*sigh* i cant wait for 9th June 12.45pm to arrive !!!!

4.45am.

it's now 4.45am, yet i'm still awake.it's not that i'm not tired.i'm DAMN tired now.yet i cant seem to fall asleep.i had this problems for the past few days, i think it's all because of my sleeping cycle is totally messed up.for the past few days, i'll sleep at about 5-6am then i'll wake up at about 3-4pm. yep..i had more than 8 hours sleep.

My Schedule
4pm - 4.30pm: breakfast.
4.30pm - 8pm: stoning/napping.
8pm - 8.30pm: dinner
8.30pm - 11/12/1am:blogging, chatting,stoning
1 - 5/6am : studying. and of course breaks in between.
6am - 3/4pm: sleeeeep.

unfortunately for me, yesterday my "study time" was extended till 8.30am, i tried sleeping at 7am but i cant fall asleep..then suddenly my phone rang.i was thinking, who would call me so bloody early in the morning. "Mr. Y calling....."*dammmmmmn* my boss. before answering the phone, i know what is coming...Yep, i pressed the answer button "Ms Wong, today the students are having history exam..can u come in and replace etc etc..." well, since i can't fall asleep, and...going in means i'll have extra money. hellll...so i said yes. it was almost 9 and class starts at 9am. i didnt even shower and i dash out of the house already. BAD MOVE. i should have force myself to fall asleep. my form1 class made me so blooooody PISSED OFF. ugh...spoil my day. how i wish, one day...Malaysian Government would allow tutors to "hentam" their students. (i'm NOT being violent OK?)

anways, after almost 2 hours of screaming session...i head home and, SLEEP.i told my mom to wake me up at 1pm.i cant over sleep in the afternoon anymore.i need to adjust back my sleeping cycle, if not how the hell am i sitting for exams? well, my mom..being her, just woke me up.didnt care whether i did wake up or not...so, i pig until 6.30pm. my sis reached home..... time for yoga classsss..... argghh... damn sien man...

reached home at about 10...shower...blog...stone...chat (yep, im right on schedule) then finally about 1am...i bring my arse up to my room to start studying.

and...it's almost 5..time to hit the bed...UNFORTUNATELY, i need to wake up at 5.30am...need to follow my sis out and meet up with my friends for breakfast. so...what's the point of sleeping.so i shall struggle for this day..and by tomorrow...my sleeping cycle would be back to normal...

Here In My Home.

a few weeks back, i was listening to the radio and i came across this song. it was sang by Malaysians Artistes For Unity. I have to admit, after listening to this song, it's not the greatest song that i ever heard.but when i listen to the lyrics, i just feel that if only all Malaysians think the same way.

i like this part the most "No matter where i roam, this is home sweet home" no matter how far u study, no matter where u work after graduation, at the end of the day Malaysia is where u belong. i don't think many youths today share the same thought as me.or even adults.i know that many people migrated to other countries, and i just can't help feeling a bit gloomy about it.

many youths today just CAN'T wait to go study abroad.at first they will said, of course i will be coming back.then...after a few years abroad, they apply PR.then, they start working there.then they never come back.i know that maybe one day, i myself might be studying abroad as well. and maybe, there is a possibility that i may be working abroad as well.but there is one thing that im damn sure of.is that one day, no matter how far i roam, Malaysia, is my home.my home sweet home.Malaysia is where i belong.

so people. listen to this song.listen to the lyrics.cherish it.and keep it in you.*Peace*

Hold on brother hold on

The road is long. We’re on stony ground

But I’m strong. You ain’t heavy

Oh there’s a misspoken truth that lies

Colors don’t bind, oh no.

What do they know? They speak falsely.

Here in my home

I’ll tell you what its all about
There’s just one hope here in my heart
One Love undivided
That’s what it’s all about
Please won’t you fall in one by one by one [with me]?

Push back sister won’t you push back?
Love won’t wait. Just keep pushing on.
Yes I’m strong. You ain’t heavy.

Oh don’t you worry about that…
What we have the shadows can’t deny
Don’t you know it’s now or never?

Rap:
[Malay: TRANSLATED]
Years of fears and years of tribulation
The heart keeps searching for that endless devotion

[Chinese: TRANSLATED]
Hand in hand we’ll march like blood brothers
I speak for my people hope we’ll find peace forever

[Tamil: TRANSLATED]
May the road ahead quench my thirst for success
May the road behind echo a song of the blessed

[English]
So I will let it be known yes I feel it in my bones
No matter where I roam this is home sweet home
Sing!

Saturday Night.

another day is yet to end.drawing me closer and closer to my finals. *sigh* today i had Yoga class, but i reached early so i went starbucks and chill alone for a while.i was at 1U, so my seat was basically facing the rainforest.i just sit there stone for a while.thinking about exams.thinking about how relaxing life would be if i can just always sit at starbucks, just watch the world goes by.then...i remembered, there was once an old friend complained to me (she is having her exams that time) saying how great life be without exams and studies.then i told her...hello?life would be boring if u have NTH to study. so..it's time that i take my own advice. don't get me wrong, i love what im studying now. in fact i consider myself lucky to be able to decide what i actually wanted and being able to pursue it.BUT...exams suck to the max man. if i fail mean i need to re sit the whole bloody year. even if i pass but with just average pass, i cant get my stupid licence. argh!

then...i took out my phone, call my buddy -Alex.just to talk crap for a while. and i manage to convince him to come over for dinner.well..actually he made 2 trips to 1U lar.

730pm.Yoga time.ugh...i don't understand y i even do yoga.it's so...ouch.especially those stretching.maybe i didnt do for more than a week already.just a simple pose, my thighs were wobbling.THIGHS, not knees..can u imagine it? shiiiiit.

after yoga, then we went SS2 for dinner.well, more like dinner for me and drinking for alex. *sigh* stupid alex, asked him go home study, but now he's in uncle Don. shiiit...

well..that's all for now.time to hit the Boooooooooks! =)

Chilling Again.

yesterday, nie suddenly sms me, asking me whether want to go chill at wong kok ss2 this time. apparently, alex and richard wants to do their assignment...*Sigh* i know that i should stay at home and study, but...well..u're right. i decided to go.but this time i brought my books with me, and i need to pass sth to winnie.i need her to draw sth out for me.

winnie at wong kok.

i thought he was suppose to do assignment..but with his "yam" look over there.. .hmm, ur guess is as good as mine. *laughs*

RED bottles

RichardLow.

AlexTang.

Yap Winnie.My favourite girl.

Me and Winnie at starbucks.

we had been spending so much time in starbucks.i think this was almost my 4th or 5th in this 2 weeks time...

Alex Tang - im not sure whether he's exhausted because of assignments or.......... *winks*

Chill Chill Chill!

i just got home on the evening, sitting in front of my dekstop, stoning as long as possible before getting my arse up and K-book...then, a familiar message beep pop out.Alex.asked...want go yamcha?AGAIN. *laughs* it's fated. bye bye books!

so i asked shin ee to join us, too bad winnie was busy. well...we just go there, and chill for a while..did a lot of crapping and laughing. it's great to have friends living so near u, that u can just call them out to CHIIILLL! *laughs* that's what my chillin' mates are there for.

OldTown.

Shin Ee - my new chillin' kaki =)

Alex - laughing at his own LAME joke. *laughss*

Me

so ppl out there, what i want to say is...no matter how stressed you are feeling.whether it's relationship, work, studies, exams problems...just call ur mates and go out and CHILL! now...once i got back, had my dinner...i felt more motivated to STUDY! (=

#Untitled#

after a few weeks without seeing my girlfriend wendy, we decided to meet up today at Midvalley (our old place) and i also need a haircut. i think the last time i cut my hair was last August. almost a year! about 2 years ago, i hate going for a haircut, cos i'll go home with a sour face, as i'll never be satisfied,for a period of time, i thought it was my problem. finally, last 2 years i found a place at SS2 . finally i can go home with a smile.Unfortunately, that shop moved to somewhere else.that means i need to start all over again!

*sigh * to avoid unnecessary dissatisfaction, i decided to take wendy's advice and go to the place she got her hair cut regularly.it's damn costly man. well, at least im quite OK with the outcome.

BEFORE

AFTER.

then, i meet up with wendy for lunch.usually we will take a LONG time to decide where we should have lunch, but this time we were able to go to the restaurant straightaway. why? all thanks to richardlow's blog on Paddington house of pancakes. those pancakes look so damn tempting! i actually told wendy one week in advance, saying that we MUST have lunch there.

PADDINGTON HOUSE OF PANCAKES

That's me, sipping my ice coffee with choc ice cream.

*sigh* i cant believe wendy is not in the mood for photos.AGAIN.we din see each other for more than a week! YET...DAMNNNN! so...i just have to syiok sendiri.

wendy ordered this - Treasure Box. looks tempting right? =)

i ordered this - BUT, i forgot what is it called edi. *sigh* but the pancakes are really GOOD!

What Happens In Vegas.

are you a fan of a romantic comedy movie? well, if you're, i would strongly recommend you to watch "What Happen In Vegas" starring Ashton Kutcher and Cameron Diaz.

well, it started off with a woman, named Joy McNally who always live a life, trying to be the perfect fiancée, but while trying her best to do that, she neglect something that is most important, which is her own happiness.when her fiancée dumped her in front of all their friends during his surprise birthday party, joy decided to take a time off and had fun in Vegas with her girlfriend.. and then bump into a total slacker Jack Fuller and his buddy. Jack himself just got fired from his own dad decided to had some fun time in Vegas as well. both Jack and Joy hit off well, partied too hard, and end up getting married on the very same night they met each other.

the very next morning, both of them tried to clarify things up, thinking that breaking up is the only way out.however, fortunately or unfortunately, Jack hits Jackpot! using Joy's money.and now both of them were claiming the total win which is $ 3mil.! well, since they are legally married..what belongs to the husband, belongs to the wife too! *laughs* so what happened next? find it out yourself.

i would rate this movie 8 out of 10.it's a hilarious movie, yet it can be touching too. (: go check it out!

Mummy's Day.

today.11th May...is mother's day.both my and my sis decided to bring my mom out to do pedicure together.a mother & daughters day out.unfortunately.. i manage to pissed my mom off 1st thing in the morning.

well, i was out late last night, and once i reached home about 320am (nie's 20th birthday)...i straightaway crashed on my bed and sleeeeeep.BUT...i dont know for whatever reason, i woke up at about 530.just suddenly.then i had some headaches.i dont know whether because i was over-caffeinated OR lack sleep thru out the week OR...i dont know.partying too much?quite unlikely..i barely drink.anyways, i just cant fall asleep. i was tossing around.turn left.turn right.head face down.argh.my head is killing me! i want to take panadol, but i think heart is still pounding damn fast - ughh..dun understand y the alcohol stay in my blood for so damn long. finally...i cannot tahan anymore...screw it.i swallow down 2 panadols.then..thinking i finally can try to get a few more hours of sleep..then...sth just hits me.shi-atee! my IC is with alex!i forgot to take it back from him!! arrgh.that time was already 647am...i just sms him straight away.the weird thing is he actually replied me.ooppss..i woke him up.sorry ya alex.we kind of msg for a while..then...i tried to get back to my beauty sleep.

a few hours later...i heard..a loud banging.someone is banging my door.it's my MOM.unfortunately or fortunately the door was locked.so..my mom screamed at me.asking me..."YOU WANT TO GO OR NOT ONE?HAR? STILL DONT WANT TO WAKE UP yada yada yada.." it's only 1030..and it's a sunday...give me a break....

well...the best thing to do is just shut my mouth and get my arse out from my bed. thank God i no longer had those headaches.so....the 3 of us went..went to hartams for a pedicure session. well, thank God mom was in the good mood already.well, all thanks to my sis, cos both of them were chatting non-stop all the way while i just shut my mouth.well..sometimes the lesser i talk, the lesser time my mom will be pissed with me. well...at least i get to "pamper" my feet...BUT it cost a big hole in my wallet. =(

mine

sis's, mine, mom's.

then later at night...the whole family went for dinner at 1U...*sigh* it was a long time since we had one dinner with the whole family WITHOUT a single argument.but...i guess families are like that right? we fight cos we love each other.....right?

anyways..dear mummy, happy mother's day. i'll always love you no matter what!

Chillin' .

it's now 2.32am.and..what am i doing?taking a break from studying. sometimes, i enjoyed what im reading, sometimes i hate it so badly. when i hate it so badly, i'll be stressed.frustrated.lost. when i had such feeling, what will i do?what else, call my bestie out for a chilling session. *laughs* yup..just an hour or two with my bestie; do some crapping, have some drinks. whether we're in mamak or starbucks. talking to her just kind of flush all my frustrations away. who is this bestie?

YAP WINNIE

i known her since secondary school time, since form 1.but i only get to know her better when we were in form4, since we were in the same class; until form5. hmm..so that means...almost 6 years of friendship.it's not too long nor short.but i really do cherish my friendship with her and of course i hope that it will last and time will not be a factor.


well, just a couple of hours ago...alex - another chillin kaki, was stressed over his assignments, and me, stressed because he's stressed. (*laughs*) so...we went for another chilling session at starbucks.

Alex Tang - another chillin' kaki

well, the initial plan is to go starbucks and study. so...we brought our books there, well, more i like i bring my book while he brought his laptop.once we reached there, i started reading my book diligently..while alex was diligently chating and flirting via MSN...what the...we were suppose to be studying! *laughs* anyways, finally, he opened up his book and we start to discuss his assignment. i always enjoy discussing on points of law with other ppl.whether they are studying law or not.i mean, it's great, u give ur view and i give mine.and there are no one right answer.that is the beauty of law.u argue ur way out. not like maths... 1+1=2 (no offense to those math lovers ya... :-P )

finally about 1130, we decided to close our books and start to talk crap. *sigh* alex was in the mood for clubbing..since it's thursday night..means..maison = goldfish. then..decided to call yew wey, since she's out clubbing with winnie and other friends. so i called her, check out where they went...SCARLETT...za dao..just a few steps away from us. so...we..."si fat han" went there to find them.hmm..actually is alex si fat han want to see whether they got any lenglui friends or not...heheee...so...we just went there, said Hi + take photos + Bye then leave The Curve. by the way, Winnie looks GORGEOUS + HAWWWT just now. dear blog readers...winnie..is single and available... (nie don't screw me when u read this ya...)

well...that's all for now. looking forward for another chilling session with my chilling gang... (:

now, back to my boOks.

Empty Decorations.

Lately, when i woke up;
When i stare at my book;
my notes;
my room's ceiling;
myself...
This is what i felt:

I wake in the dawn to showers of light
Moments of emptiness surround
Floating away with auras of hope
But reality brings me down to the ground
What can i do ?
What can i say ?
I need a place to hide away
Just for a while, just for a smile
Just for the life i used to know

Where every song
Was filled with words of love and not of anger
Where did they go ?
Why did they leave me far behind ?


Cause i don't wanna be alone
Living life all on my own
I don't wanna live my life in isolation
Filled with empty decorations
Cause i wanna be with the people that i know
Who will do the things i do
Making all my dreams come true
I don't recognise the shadows on my door
Although i've seen them all before
Because the only thing i really want is to be with you...

I look at the sky, it looks back at me
I can't hear the silent melodies
I know that i'm here yet i am lost
Blown in confusion by the breeze
Hiding my face, crying alone
I need to find my way back home
Back to the place, the wonderful days
Living the life i used to know

Where every smile
Was born out of a love and of sincerity
And every tear of everflowing joy

(Empty Decorations by Indecisive)

Expectations.

it's now 3.28am. what am i doing? blogging. *sigh* i was reading my evidence notes, on right to silence.i don't understand a shit!i mean..yea, i know the law and everything..then English Courts screwed it up.AGAIN.can't they just make our life simple?

i was so fed up..i decided to go online and chat with whoever that is online.BAD MOVE. a collegemate, msg me in MSN.so..we chatted for a while.out of the blue..he just said.."so..i received good comments about u from ur evidence lecturer huh. u r rated one of the top scorers..... etc"

SHIT.just a few minutes ago i was cursing evidence paper.WTH?! don't you just hate it, when ppl make their own prediction who will score or fail?and even if they do...it's best if it's kept just between them.i mean...maybe some ppl can take it as an encouragement to study harder.but, to me..it's giving me unnecessary pressure. i admit that, i had a huge ego.especially in studies.i mean; if that is what ppl expect from me, i should perform even better.BUT, what if i cant?what if i didn't meet up those expectations.everything will go down the drain.

Friendship.

everyone in this world, are born to be someone's friend.and we are born to learn what is friendship. how to hold on to a friendship.how to let friendship go.

when i was in kindergarten, to me, friend is someone that i can play "masak-masak" or "kejar-kejar" with.

when i was in primary school, friend is someone that i can talk and play with.

when i was in secondary school, of course i gain maturity, not EVERYONE i talk to, can be called a friend.
since the "me" in secondary school, the person i am today...i learn many things about friendship. i know what kind of friend is worth retaining, who are those that are not worth retaining. a few months ago, i lost a very, very valuable friendship.But, i never regretted it. yes, i was sad.when i think back, i would sigh. nevertheless, the person i see her turning into today, made me realised, maybe she was never the person that i thought she was.

just a few days ago, i was talking to my closest friend, nie...about another friend.a friend i knew for almost 6 years. we used to be quite close, especially during our secondary school time. Yet, once we graduated, the time we hang out became lesser.from weekly to monthly, from monthly to only birthday occasions. and today, even on my own birthday, he was not there. yes, i know that part of the process of growing up, we will be busy with our new surroundings, we will meet new people. but that doesn't mean you have to give up on previous friendship. i don't even know whether i can still call that person my friend.

for a short moment, i allow myself to walk down the memory lane....

• a bunch of us will always have a trip, once a year, the last one was pulau perhentian.
  
• once it was someone's birthday, it will be chaos...as there will be at least 10 of us.
  
• the times when i had major argument with him when we were in secondary school.
  
• there were even moments that i hate him so badly
• times when i admire him for his leadership quality.
  
• jokes that we shared together
  

all of those, are slowly fading away. if one day, this friendship fade away as well...it would be something that i would regret deeply.

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