Procrastinating.

exams are just 8 days away. there are still loads for me to memorise.

yet my brain can't seem to absorb anymore.

i was staring at the same page for hours, somehow...i can't register any of it.

is it really possible that human's brain can be overloaded?

well, scientifically speaking, i guess the answer would be no.

i just don't have the motivation to memorise any of it.

i know that, to have motivation to do one thing, u have to have the passion for it.

this is what i always had, for the last 3 years whilst i was studying for my degree.

i studied, not only for exams, but i took the extra miles. i am willing to do the extra research not only for exam purpose but because i myself wanted to know more on that subject matter.

but now?

academically speaking, this is the final step.

the final step before i achieved what i wanted since 15.

yet, i felt like i had moved 10 steps backwards.

i am so de-motivated.

there is no passion in this at all.

i felt so useless.

i am probably just procrastinating.

i am probably just too lazy.

why do people procrastinate?

when they know that at the end of the day, they are just fucking themselves up?

that's what i am doing now.

if i dont bloody buck up now, i'll fucked myself up.