Tidak Apa-lah.

more often than not, we always find Malaysians themselves complaining about the "Malaysian attitude"; infamously--

our tardiness and our "tidak apa" attitude.

little did we realised that, the ones that complained actually had the same attitude as well.

it's ironic when one complained about the way Malaysians work, yet they themselves possesses the same attitude.

i have to admit that by majority, we have this "tidak apa" attitude.

it's like, if it's none of my business, then i'll just take my own sweet time to do it for u.

but somehow people always tend to complain and make it public.

but when it comes to praises or giving credit, it was seldom made public.

we only remember to tell when something bad happened, but when things were done efficiently for us, we would take it as "well, it's their job anyway" .

well, i find this amusing.

August!

it has been a week since exam ended

yet it felt like i had been on holidays for weeks!

july is coming to an end already.

i know it sounds like a cliche,

but TIME REALLY FLIES!

and i'm very sure that my august will end in a blink of an eye.

to me,

the month of august would be all about saying my goodbyes.

farewells.

trips.

parties.

it's going to be a wonderful, blissful month.

no worries about studies nor exams.

i'm so going to LOVE my month of august!

Finally!

Finalllly!

i'm done and over with my CLP exams!

whether i'll pass or fail...i'll just leave it to God.

if i have the choice, of course i would want to pass this exams.

honestly, i can't imagine re-doing all 5 papers all over again.

the mere thought of it, just freaks me out.

sigh.

but there is nothing i can do, but wait.

and leave everything to God.

i'm really looking forward for my LOOOOONG holidays!

i'm looking forward for my Bkk trip coming Aug with my college mates;

Singapore trip with my dear darlings babies -- Jan,Teng,Nie;

a few days with my grandparents in Batu Pahat;

partying as much as possible with my darling babies and friends;

and of course spending loads of time with my beloved family

for the next 2 months.

i am going to miss everyone!!!

It just slips off my mind...

today, we had Professional Practice paper.

i'm quite sure that most of us would regard this as the killer paper.

reason being there are just so,so much to study and to memorise.

what makes it irksome is that it squeezes 5 subjects into one paper (i know i keep repeating this, but i just can't help myself!) and for 2 subjects, only one question each would come out.

so, imagine...the entire law on Bankruptcy/Winding up, only one question.

if that question is on a particular area that u're not very familiar with, then you're screwed.

and today, i realised that...no matter how much or how well i tried to memorise prior to the exams, somehow...something will just slip off my mind.

i am quite mad with myself for leaving out some issues today in my Bankruptcy and Probate question [there's no question on Winding up!! ): ]

and for my ethics? despite memorising those Rules, i can't remember the rule number. just the law. i am unable to cite the Rules number.

sigh. no point fretting about it now.

what's done is done.

now, i have to focus on my final paper on weds -- Evidence!

Exams, oh exams!

another paper done today--Criminal Procedure.

honestly speaking, when i was revising and memorising for the past few weeks, Criminal Procedure was the subject that i worried the least.

reason being the past year exam questions had been quite straightforward.

however, after today's paper...

comparing with my previous two, i felt that the previous two were done better than today's.

the questions where i know what they are asking, i just simply can't remember.

i don't know why.

despite hours of memorising. sigh.

i really envy those with super-good memory.

there are two part questions that i am quite sure went down the drain already.

sigh.

worry.worry.worrrry.

well, 2 more papers and i'll be DONE!

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after dinner, i received a text from baby teng, asking me when my exam will end.

i replied, saying next weds and asking her why?

her sister--chyn is leaving for Adelaide on Sunday and she's throwing a surprise farewell party at The Library.

sigh.

i was so, so, so tempted to go.

i haven seen chyn for ages and she'll be leaving this Sunday! ):

sigh.

loads of sacrifices were made (well, socially. lol) for this CLP exams,

please made it worth sacrificing!

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Silly Mistakes.

after so many years of studying, i realised that the main key to score well in exams is to stay calm and focus during the exams.

especially in those for those subjects which are wholly exam based. for the past 5 years, be it for my A Levels, LLB and now CLP, it's all exam based.

therefore, whether we pass or fail that paper would depend on the crucial 3 hours exam for each paper.

of course one has to study and prepare well before the exam.

but in exam conditions, many other factors may affect one's ability to do well.

time management is crucial too.

sometimes when you are just too excited to finish each question within the time limit, silly mistakes were made.

that was what happened to me today.

i screwed up badly for my Tort Statement of Claim.

despite reading the question carefully and being able to identify the place to be Kuantan, Pahang...i wrote Kuala Lumpur instead.

this is what happens when most of the past year questions i did was in KL.

and i missed out the whole introductory paragraph in relation to the Plaintiff's capacity. i started off immediately with the facts of the case.

i was halfway through my statement of claim when i realised my omission.

thank goodness Tort was the 1st question i did.

i finished it up anyhow and started off with my Contract question.

and the answers are not so lengthy and i had the extra time to re-write my entire Tort SOC. which was a huge relief.

it was a really silly mistake that was made, but such silly mistakes may cost me a lot of marks.

i had some other classmates which made mistakes, mistakes not on the point of law, but mainly the citation of statute.

it's just horrible to lose marks because of such mistakes.

sigh.

2 papers down, 3 more to go.

the third paper - Criminal Procedure would be on this Friday.

next week papers--

Professional Practice, is a KILLER paper. 5 subjects squeezed into one paper. 5 essay questions to be answered within 3 hours. only one statute book allowed. whether we score, pass or fail...would based a lot on how much we're able to remember.

Evidence is our final paper. amongst all subjects, i like studying Evidence the most...but the problem would be answering questions. as the questions tend to be tricky and once the wrong issue is identified, then SCREWED.

sigh.

im really looking forward to next weds. that would be our final paper...

and I DON'T WANT TO DO IT ANOTHER TIME! ! ! ! !

One Down, Four To Go.

finally, one paper down, four more to go!

well, i am not sure how well i did for this paper.

it's quite doable although i don't have the 100% confidence.

i know that i can do better,

there are some cases which i can't recall the name.

and there are definitely some points i missed.

but what is done is done.

i did my best at that particular time.

i felt quite weird in this exam,

since we are always advised not to write too much

keep it short and simple

which is so different from all my LLB papers.

it's weird because, i think this is the 1st time i didn't request for an additional booklet.

i didn't even finish the 1st booklet that was given.

well, now i'll have to focus on my next four papers!

Don't Be Anxious.

i wasnt until today that i realised that i can't handle obstacles well.

instead of remaining calm and try to solve the problem,

i will be anxious about it until the obstacles are overcome.

today i went to pick up my passport which was submitted for my visa application.

i was told that it's ready for collection,

and i wasn't actually informed whether my application was approved or refused.

when i was given the envelope containing my documents,

the first thing i checked was my passport.

and i realised that there is no visa attached inside there.

and i was like "hey...wait a minute....."

so i dig deeper into the envelop.

then only i saw the letter, stating that my entry was refused.

ok.

first, i was shocked.

because, honestly speaking...i didn't expect this at all.

i tripled checked everything that is needed.

so i thought it was the evidence of maintenance part that screwed me up...

then i read further to see the reason for refusal.

it was stated that the reason was because the transcript i submitted was not original.

at that time, i really freaked out, cause it was the exact same transcript which i received from UOL that i submit to them, and there was a seal on the 2nd page.

immediately, i fill up the administrative review form and submit back the same transcript, explaining that that document was sent by UOL and it is indeed original, evident by the seal mark at page 2.

although i did all that i could at that moment, and i have to wait for their answer...

i can't help feeling very extremely anxious.

exams will be next monday and it will last for about 1 1/2 weeks.

i keep worrying myself by asking...

what if i need to submit my passport sometime next week?

what if my application for review is again denied?

then i have to wait until after exam...

then, what about my bkk trip?

what about the money in the fix deposit? it means that my dad has to extend it, and....it's by no means a small amount!

sigh.

i know that there is nothing i can do other than to wait for the decision.

yet i keep worry.

i have to keep reminding myself, not to feel anxious. just submit everything to God.

Procrastinating.

exams are just 8 days away. there are still loads for me to memorise.

yet my brain can't seem to absorb anymore.

i was staring at the same page for hours, somehow...i can't register any of it.

is it really possible that human's brain can be overloaded?

well, scientifically speaking, i guess the answer would be no.

i just don't have the motivation to memorise any of it.

i know that, to have motivation to do one thing, u have to have the passion for it.

this is what i always had, for the last 3 years whilst i was studying for my degree.

i studied, not only for exams, but i took the extra miles. i am willing to do the extra research not only for exam purpose but because i myself wanted to know more on that subject matter.

but now?

academically speaking, this is the final step.

the final step before i achieved what i wanted since 15.

yet, i felt like i had moved 10 steps backwards.

i am so de-motivated.

there is no passion in this at all.

i felt so useless.

i am probably just procrastinating.

i am probably just too lazy.

why do people procrastinate?

when they know that at the end of the day, they are just fucking themselves up?

that's what i am doing now.

if i dont bloody buck up now, i'll fucked myself up.

i'm a nerd.

i feel like a total nerd lately.

i'm doing nth but memorising.

memorising all that can go into my tiny brain.

i can't even remember the last time i went out with my friends.

the last time i had a good laugh.

i can't wait for my exams to be OVER.

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11 Days to go.

11 days more. then my CLP exams will commence.

no words that can be used to describe what i am feeling now.

anxiousness, is underrated.

so many cases and sections and rules are not memorised yet.