Wiser, Closer and Apart.

recently, i just uploaded some new pics, those of which where i went travelling, either alone, with family or with friends, and it traces back as far as 2005. looking at those pictures, especially those where i went for trips with my close friends, i know it's just another cliche, but i can't help thinking how much we had grown to the person we are today. we grown wise, we grown closer and unfortunately, even grown apart.

the way we think today, and 5 years ago will definitely change. some of our mentality changed the same way, which made us even closer than before. for the others, we simply grew apart as we can't accept the changes that each of us now cultivate.

but for me, although we can't hang out as often as before, or laugh about the same issues nor share the same wavelengths anymore, to me, the fact that we used to have a strong bond when we were younger, made me feel that there were times that effort should be put into arranging a once in a while gathering. be it a birthday celebration or a simple nice dinner out. a simple catch up session, rather than a sudden total ignorance of each other's existence. but honestly, in the era of blogging and facebook-ing, it's hard to totally disconnect from each other, what i really meant was a physical meet up.

however, it would be totally useless if i'm the only one making the effort. it would be pointless if some people just feel like it's not necessary to turn up or even reply a simple text. or took ages to reply.

it's giving me unnecessary and unwanted stress. i'm starting to feel as though my effort & time in planning all of this. it's not that i'm a super free person with nth else better to do. don't get me wrong, if only there are fruits from all the efforts i'm putting in, i would think that it's worthy of me doing all of this.

but now? all i have is ppl complaining to me, ppl being unhappy for the changes in time and texts that are not replied.