Selfish Me.

do you believe that it's possible for a guy and a girl to be really,really good friends? so good till the extent that you can share almost everything and be there for each other?

i used to believe that it's possible, reason being is that i myself did have a very good friend which is of the opposite sex. having him as a friend is one of the greatest thing that happened to me, he is always there for me when i needed a shoulder to lean on. and we both know that it's extremely impossible for us to fall for each other, because we are so not each other types. we know that both of us can and will only be very good friends. and i really cherish this friendship a lot. sometimes i felt that i need him so much till the extent that i felt that im being selfish.

i dont deny that there were times that i myself am aware that he did much more for me than the other way round. i share my problems to him more than the other way round. i thought i was because he's just being a typical guy, where they don't talk about their feelings.

since few weeks back, i felt that somethings kind of change between us. and i know that he's actually going after another girl.

and now, they are officially together.

i know that i'm not in the position to feel jealous or anything. i know that i'm not jealous. part of me aches, because i know that i'm about to lose something.

things will not be the same anymore, as now...the extent of him caring for me would be limited.

i know that i sounded very selfish. but i just can't help it.

somehow, i felt like i lost a good friend already.

i don't think i can take losing friends anymore. i'd lost too many already.