Stress

STRESS.

stress. yes. that is what i am feeling lately. exam starts on the 12th July. means, less than 2 months from now.

there are just so,so much to memorise. the horrible part is that, most of it is pure memory work. i know, i keep repeating this, but seriously...it's all about testing how good one's memory is.

for the past 3 years during my degree, the way i revise each subjects would be in accordance with the revision timetable in my college.

so if let's say for that 2 weeks is on Evidence, then my revision would purely be on Evidence. it would be purely on doing past year questions on that subject.

but, once Professional Practice revision started. my timetable is all messed up. Why? Because 3 subjects is squeezed into one paper. I am only done with ethics,advocacy. and it's not even 100%. I halfway through bankruptcy. havent started on winding up. my land, well... can i give up?

SO DAMN STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

and now revision is on Civil Procedure already.

damn shit.

shit.

stress shit.

FML !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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i need a drink.

Dull Me.

i haven't been blogging much lately.

i suppose it's because my life has been pretty dull lately.

there's nothing much to blog about.

things are just...boring.

boring.

ohyea.

i suddenly remembered.

about a month ago, i blogged about KTM's implementation of "Ladies Coach".

as i mentioned in my previous post, i said that it was ineffective.

well, i have to take back my words now.

last monday, i took the KTM again.

and this time, i saw a vast difference.

this time, signboards are clearer, where the middle compartment is reserved for ladies only.

and they stationed one to two KTM staff, males to stand guard.

to ensure that no males actually went into that compartment.

what strikes me to be amusing is that, despite warnings...some men, were just so oblivious.

it happened when i was on my way back from Bank Negara, when the KTM stopped at Putra station. 2 male foreign workers actually board the Ladies Coach. i suppose they dont understand malay, english nor tamil. the staff has to point to the signboard and gesturing towards the other passengers, which are all ladies. and...they, still seem....well. BLUR.

the train already started moving, yet they are still inside and the KTM staff seemed lost of words.

finally, after a few minutes...only they are willing to head towards the other compartment.

i am glad that they started to take stricter measure to ensure the effectiveness of this Ladies Coach implementation.

but, the problem arose when it's during peak hour.

when i took the train, was during odd hours, so naturally, the train aint that packed.

my friend who board the train about 5sth in the afternoon, told me that... all the ladies will now want to squeeze into the ladies compartment. i mean, it's understandable. i wouldnt want to be in a compartment, where everyone is packed like sardine and being the one or 2 only girls. right?

so..what now ?

sigh. i can't believe i'm actually updating on KTM's Ladies Coach effectiveness.

this shows how dull i am lately.

Regret.

Have u even done something, and subsequently regret doing it? I'm pretty sure that, somehow...you will regret doing or not doing something before. Be it something major or minor. At some point, everyone experience this negative conscious before.

Nevertheless, people tend to move on in life. Put the past behind them and continue with their everyday life.

The same happened to me. I did something that I regretted, really regretted doing it. And that was almost 3 years ago. What had been done, impacted my life at that point of time pretty much. Many things changed. Subsequently, misunderstandings occurred too. But then, somehow, I manage to overcome the feeling of regret. In other words, I move on from it.

Yet, almost 3 years later. The same issue came back haunting me.

The deep sense of regret started to feel my mind, my heart, my everything.

I don't think that I can just turn back and say "I am sorry". It's not about my pride, it's just that...if saying sorry can truly mend things, then I suppose those subsequent problems wouldn't even happen. Not to mention that the issue that triggered off those subsequent problems happened 3 years ago.

What else can I do?

Other than feeling what I am feeling now. Which is, regret.