Doesn't make sense.

Since exams ended until today, I have done some traveling/road trip...

And now I have to focus on my dissertation, which is due in about one month's time.

And another one more month, will be the time I say goodbye to London.

A close friend of mine left London last week,

and my question was..any regrets? Yes.

Well, I guess, it's inevitable that we humans will have regrets, no matter how much we try to be perfect.

Imperfection, to me, is how God wants us to be.

So we can always learn from our mistakes.

Until now, I have some regrets, mainly in relation to my exams.

I know that I could have done better.

I know that I could have memorised better.

And now, my last opportunity to push my grade is my dissertation.

I'm currently working on my final chapter, hope it will be good.

...

Last night, I had a terrible headache.

And feel nausea.

It's like a tsunami in my tummy.

At that point of time...

The first person that came into my mind, mummy.

I can remember the times when I had terrible headache,

I will just go knock onto her door,

asked her to rub some tiger balm onto my forehead.

I miss my mummy... :/

...

Was having a jog in the evening,

I thought that I'm feeling better.

But after about 1km of jog,

I start to feel nausea again.

Stopped jogging. Slowly make my way back to my flat.

Then...at that point, I feel even more lonely.

Knowing that there is no one I can call.

...

This blog post doesn't make sense.

Everything is scattered around and doesn't link to each other.

Similar to my dissertation.

...

Shit.

One more to go!

I'm done with my first two papers - Cyberspace and Media Law.

Now left my final one on the 31st May.

Just in 2 weeks time! Can't wait for my exams to come to an end!

And hols to look forward too!

Yea, I know I have a 15,000 words dissertation due in August, and I haven't start a shit yet.

I'll remind myself about that later.

Exams...were not too bad.

But not too good either.

Sigh. I don't know.

I just have mixed feelings with the answers I attempted.

Maybe it's the lack of confidence?

I'm not sure.

I can only hope for the best.

Tiny pieces.

I wonder why you can't hear it.

The sound of my breaking heart.

Shattered into millions of pieces.

Yet you can't hear it.

When you are the cause of it.

My final exam will start in one week's time.

But somehow, I don't know..

I don't feel as much tension nor stress as I used to feel.

I can still remember when I was sitting for my final year LLB

and CLP... I start to "countdown" for my first paper one month ahead.

Sigh. It's not that I'm very confident with my exams now.

Just, don't feel much stress.

All I know is that I have to keep on going.

Just keep on memorising as much as I can.

And I keep telling myself, if I'm able to memorise all the stuff needed for CLP,

I suppose this shouldn't be a problem too.

Sigh.

Unsent Love Letter.

My dear,

It has already been 6 months.

6 months since we first met.

I'm surprise that we can maintain this for 6 months.

Was it because it was made clear from the very beginning that we will not have any expectations towards each other?

And just let everything happens naturally?

I guess it's possible.

I'm blessed to have met you here.

Living alone in a foreign place seems more bearable and less lonely.

Although there were times when I feel that there is more bitter moments than happy ones,

the mere fact that you took an effort out of your busy schedule is enough for me.

Your sweet little gestures made my heart flutters, and that is more than enough for me.

Although I know that once I leave this place,

the possibility to continuing this is very slim.

But, somehow...Even when time goes by,

I know that you, will always have a place inside me.

Thank you for being who you are.

x

My darling sis.

Few weeks ago, my darling sister came to visit me. I'm so glad to see her again! It's the longest time that I'm apart from her. More than 6 months! Yea, I know it's not that long...But, we've never been apart for that long before!

Enjoying ice-cream in Barcelona.

Paris.

Sisters in maxi dress!

In Cambridge.

I love u jie!

all about travelling!

i realised that my blog has been pretty dull lately. it's all textual.. and since i'm so sick and bored of studying, i decided to spend some times uploading some pictures, mostly of those captured when i'm travelling around.

one thing i tried to do, is to travel as much as possible (within budget too!) whilst i'm in the UK. i know that once i'm done here, i won't be coming back anytime soon. (:

in Brussels - Manneken Pis. March 2011.

Brussels - Grand Palace

Brugges - Markt.

in Venice. Dec 2010.

in Florence with Dilyara.

Rome !

Portsmouth .

Greenwich.

somewhere in York.

Hampton Court Palace [King Henry VII's residence]

relaxing in Cambridge.

Bath.

Beautiful scenery in Bath.

i'm looking forward to easter break! my darling sister will be coming to visit me. and we will be travelling more!!!

6 months.

Gosh, it has been ages since i last blogged.

initially, i thought i would blog more often when i'm here.

somehow, i didn't.

it's not that i lack the time, i have lots of time actually.

just that i seem to lack the motivation to blog.

sometimes, i open the web, stare at the screen.

just lost of words.

6 months. i'm here for 6 months!

just in another 6 more months, and i'll be done and go back to my beloved home.

i know, i missed my lovely home.

but i have to say,

i like the new freedom i have,

to do whatever i want at whatever time.

but maybe because of this, i became less disciplined.

especially in my studies.

i spent lesser time with my books,articles and notes.

instead, i stay in the room watching anime or just doing nothing.

sigh.

this is horrible, especially exam is just around the corner.

i'm such a lazy pig.

alright.

enough of crap.