u said u want me.

and i know i want u.

yet u ask me not to fall for u.

so what do u want from me?

How Long More?

for the past few weeks, i had been asking myself.

over and over again.

is this the position i want to be in?

do i really want to be like this?

how long can i withstand this?

i guess only time can tell me.

Holding On.

it has been quite some time since i last blog.

lately, i don't feel like myself.

i don't know why.

why am i holding onto something that i know will never work out?

it's like trying desperately to grab the air.

something that u can never get hold of.

am i that desperate until i'm being someone that i'm not?

why is my emotions overtaking my rationality?

amongst my friends, i was said to be the rational one.

yet, being apart from them...i ended up being irrational.

sigh.