Freaking Out

now...is 4.51am.and im just done with my outline answer on Free Movement of Goods, which was super boring. and i still had tons of outline answers to be done. not to mention that i havent even start memorising it yet. sigh. im really freaking out now. exams..just in about 2 weeks times. exams...exams...making my life so damn sucky now.

another thing that is freaking me out is that time really flies! im finally in my final year, soon to take my very very final exams of my final year. well, thank God after this final exams, i still have more exams ahead of me nevertheless. i mean, i cant imagine myself out there, in the working world (yea, this sounds damn immature right?) but, im still a kid! im just TWENTY YEARS OLD for God's sake. honestly, i cant imagine myself, dressing up all preppy...going to work.or going to court and face those judges! ~@##$#@$%&*&( the mere though of it kind of freaks me out *shivers*

oookay..enough crapping and freaking out...now...back to....competition policy!!!

Utada Hikaru - Flavor of Life

When you say thank you to me,

for some reason it hurts,

Like a magic spell that doesn’t get undone

even after the good bye.

a hint of bitterness.

The flavor of life

Stuck midpoint between friends and lovers,

like an un-riped fruit dreaming about the day of harvest

because of being unable to just move one more step forward

what’s causing this frustration baby

When you say thank you to me,

for some reason it hurts,

Like a magic spell that doesn’t get undone

even after the good bye.

a hint of bitterness

The flavor of life

Sweet talk and tasteless conversations.

it sparks no interest in me

even when things do not go the way you want it

doesnt mean you’ve thrown your life away

When you asked ‘ whats wrong?’

I answer ‘its nothing’

The smile that disappears after goodbye

It’s unlike me

The more i wish to believe in you,

For some reason it hurts even more

‘i like you a lot’ instead of ‘i love you’ sounds more like you

the flavor of life

the period when you suddenly remember

the scent of someone you had almost forgotten

I want to be able to openly and honestly cherish

the white purity of the falling snow more

A future tender and warmer than a diamond

i want to grasp it, in this limited time we have,

i want to spend it with you

when you say thank you to me,

for some reason it hurts,

Like a magic spell that doesnt get undone

even after the good bye.

a hint of bitterness

The flavor of life

Sis's 23rd Birthday.

Today is my sis's birthday, but since she's now living in Seremban, we celebrated her birthday last saturday at Chilis.

Family in Chilis.

Birthday Cake.

The birthday girl

Sis and Me.

i spent so much this month already! on my dad's, sis's and chin's birhtday.and few days later will be mandy's birthday celebration. im so so so BROKE!~

OMG!

OMG OMG OMG OMG! it's already 24th April! one thing bad about revision ending earlier, cos all u do is stay at home..thinking that u're studying but in actual fact, u're not! cos u think that there is plenty of time (w/o even glancing at the calendar) since revision in college is still going on.

 

damn SHIT! my first paper is on the 13th May. and i dont know a SHIT about Juris! not to mention that i havent finish my stuff on company law yet. unfinished topics in EU. and IP...... Oh God, the bulkiest among the bulkiest! not that i hate IP, hell..i LOVE IP the most among all (thanks to Mr Suaran!) but...it's just tooo much.

time is running out...i gotta kick myself awake! i'm procrastinating. i know i ought to study. i should study, my final exams is in less than 3 weeks time! yet...here am i. BLOGGING! 

CRAP! 

Kuantan Trip cum Chyau's Birthday Trip

last week, winnie and her bf-tat suddenly had this crazy idea..they wanted to go down to Kuantan to watch turtle nesting during the weekend, and asked us along too. after contemplating about it for few days (since im having my finals soon) i decided to join them. 

so yesterday tat drove us (winnie,wey,li and me) down to Kuantan. we left Kepong at about 530pm, and reached there about 8 something. we were all so excited throughout the 3 hours journey. camwhoring and singing our hearts out (well, actually it was only me and wey) 

Winnie and Tat

Winnie

Wey, me, Li

at some rest stop

Our dinner. chicken chop.

after our dinner,we head to our budget hotel to leave our bags. OMG. that place is like KL's Chow Kit. just beside the hotel, there are a few pubs, and a few prostitutes waiting there for potential customers. 

Our room.

we checked our rooms. OMG No.2.it looks a little un-safe. wey was saying, will we heard sth like "ya-ma-dei" or "dai-lek-tik" when we are sleeping. plus our room window, facing the road can't be locked! well, good thing we are at the 2nd floor...hhmm..it's only rm50 per room, we can't expect much right?

after that, we head to the beach (Pantai Chenu) located beside ClubMed, there is a turtle sanctuary there, we reached there about almost 11pm, and started waiting there. once we arrived, the ranger told us that 2 turtles just came and went.so i was thinking, oookay..means more turtle will come later? 

after 45mins, the rangers go down to the beach to "ronda" again, and we followed them, chatting about turtles. unfortunately, after a 15mins walk, we didn't see a single turtle. *sigh*

at the spot where the previos turtle layed eggs. we were too disappointed cos we missed it, so we just have to re-act the scene. 

so we decided to wait for their next "ronda". then hong called saying that they (chyau and angel) are reaching as well, so we decided to wait for them at the turtle sanctuary.they arrived about 2am. they we wait.

wait.

wait.

wait.

rangers want to rest for a while...(as in tidur) so we...went to the car to have a nap. 

5am came. didnt even see one of them.

wait.

beh tahan liao.

545am head back to our hotel. 

we are suppose to leave the hotel at 7am, as tat's friend is bringing us to eat Kuantan's famous handmade noodle, and their noodles sold out very, very fast. 

initially, we didn't plan to sleep at all, but then...i was planning to bath when we reached the hotel, and since Hong is so tired, i let him bath 1st, and while waiting, naturally...i'll have a nap 1st. 

bad move. 

end up allll of us sleep. 

730am came. winnie called all of us. but since all our cells were in silent mode (we silent it in the beach as we don't want to disrupt any nesting process) so none of us wake up. 

sleep.

sleep.

dream.

dream.

930am came. *screaammmmmmm* 

shit. we are so late. tat's friend actually waited for us at the hotel entrance for 30mins. and we missed the handmade noodle. sigh. 

in our room. 

tat,winnie,chyau and angel in another room.

about 10sth, we all leave the hotel, and get late breakfast and head down to sungai lembing. the weather is FREAKING HOT! 

we went to Muzium Sungai Lembing and Crystal House. toook LOTS of pics.

roughly about 4pm, we head back to Kuantan and went to a waterfall there. that place is packed with many,many people. but it's quite worth it once we reached the top. it's sooooo refreshing to just jump into the water after a long hot day. 

we hang around there for just only about 20mins, then...HEAVY RAIN! sigh. damn shit right? it's really really heavy, and we decided head back down (so much of having picnic)

the horrible part is, there is no toilet there! only those rundown huts. sigh, one of the bad thing about being a girl, we can't just change anyway we want to! arggghh..! finally, after we dried up, changed..we decided to head back to KL. 

7pm-we reached Gambang R&R, stop there to finish our sandwiches and cut chyau's birthday cake there (1st time celebrating in R&R)  chill there for a while, then continue our journey back to KL.

Birthday Boy.

Tat...drove DAMN FAST! initially, once we got into the car, me,wey and winnie fall asleep almost instantly, then about 30mins later, i felt like the car is going damn fast and keep cutting into different lane...i woke up.look left right front.the road is so damn dark, and the lanes keep changing as there were some road repairing thing going on.

Finallly...about 9 sth, we reached Kepong. had bak kut teh for dinner.

1030pm - Home. 

it's great that, despite all of us being so busy...we still managed to have small trips sometimes, though not all of us are able to go.

i had lots of FUN! and now i have to get SERIOUS about my upcoming finals! 

When You Like Someone?

when you like someone, 

u'll think of that person almost 24/7.

waiting for that person's reply restlessly. 

wondering, whether in some way your feelings will be reciprocated,

by dissecting whatever that person ever did or said to you. 

is that a good thing? 

What's The Big Fuss?

recently, there is this big issue going on in one of the classes in my college.im not involved in that class, since i didn't take that subject, but since many of my friends are in that class, i kinda know what is going on there. 

there is this lecturer that is teaching this subject, and i had him for a few slots for another subject, so i know the way he conduct his class. initially, i don't really like his class, cause his style is..well, a bit unusual larh. but, during revision...i found out that he did improved a little, but of course there are still plenty of room for improvement.

BUT, this other subject that he's teaching, is a bigger class.i think there are at least 80 students taking that subject. and their revision class just started last week (And it will go on for another 3 weeks) and many students shared the same view -- that they didn't want him teaching. and some of them started a petition to had him replaced by another lecturer. 

i can understand the whole purpose of this petition, but..y do it so late? it's not like it's his 1st class with them..they had the entire year to bring up this issue to the management, why just before exams? yea, their petition succeed, and another lecturer have to replace him. and this another lecturer, i know..is already very extremely busy, and by giving her extra slots to teach, is an extreme burden. 

anyways, the petition is not the end of it. some ppl want to back that lecturer up.i understand the reason for backing that lecturer up, cause in a way..i felt that he was treated a little bit unfairly. 

then..apparently, one of the top management staff is involved to check the matter up. 

and exams are just in less than 4 weeks time. 

yea i know what you're thinking now... what has it gotta do with me?  LOL. i just want to blog about something before i continue doing me notes... oyasuminasai! 

Lately...

just yesterday, i went to 1u with wendy after class (it's my last class ever for my entire degree program!!!) cos she needs to buy present for her cousin's birthday... and not to mention we went there last week as well, cos she needs to buy present for another cousin's birthday... anyways, since wendy and her sibiling's budget are quite a lot, we went to branded shops to look for their presents. 

like last week, we went to tommy hillifiger, FCUK, Ralph Lauren etc etc. GOODNESS...i didnt know a simple long sleeve shirt will cost rm280 ++ that is like almost my one month salary. sigh.

anyways, it's less than one month before my final exam!!! cant wait for it to end, then i'll officially be FREE! 

 

Average Girl.

the weather in KL had been sooo freaking HOT lately! i just cant stand the heat anymore!! sighh..but what can i do? just few days ago, i was walking to college from the train station (it's about 15 mins walk) and it was about 4 sth in the afternoon...yeah, u can just imagine how hot it was at that time. whilst i was cursing the heat and carrying my so-bloody-heavy bag and trying in vain to wipe off my sweat...not to mention that my top is drenched with sweat edi...then i saw this big-black-new mercedes in front of me. there was a driver, and this rich looking lady sitting at the passenger seat, oblivious to the freaking hot weather. at that time..i was thinking...

*SIGH* 

some are just born rich. some are born poor.

some are born smart...some are dumb.

some are born pretty, some are...well..not so.

and that time..i was thinking..where am i standing then? im like the most average amongst the average. 

Lifeless.

lately, im feeling quite lifeless. revision really wore me out. sigh. i almost cant remember when i last club..ohya, it was febuary..when tian was still in KL. gosh...more than a freaking month!

i barely see my friends anymore, what used to be yamcha abour 2-4 times a week, became once in 2 weeks time.

and i cant celebrate my bestie's 21st birthday as well! since it's the same day as my 1st paper! shiiiiit! 

im always so tired. my pimples are getting more. i am getting fatter. uglier. SICK!  

Boys Over Flower.

For the past few weeks, i had been addicted to this korean drama, introduced by my friend wendy - Boys over flower. it's a korean version of the manga Hana Yori Dango / taiwan's version of Meteor Garden. yesterday night was its final episode (25 all together) and was aired in korean tv. this drama is such a hit, till u can watch it in youtube in less than 24 hours after it was aired, with english subs, chinese subs etc. (yes, i know we're infringing their copyright) 

but the point is, it's a realllllly good drama, and after watching both the taiwan and japanese version, i have to say that korean's version is the best. although there were slight changes from the original version, but those changes made the drama even more interesting and exciting. 

bottom line, this drama brings me tears and laughters and there are no one episode that is not interesting at all. i was a bit sad to be watching the final episode, knowing that there wouldnt be anymore subsequent episode *sigh* 

i know it's a huge wrong watching it on youtube, so im going to buy the vcd/dvd once it reach kl's store!